Blinds in Life

Excessive mugging and long idling between papers has really set my brain in thoughts and being philosophical ... suddenly while i was buying lunch halfway walking back home... a thought suddenly struck my mind... this thought was triggered off by thinking about someone whom i know around me who is rather i should say sensative... indeed life has many blinds as we go thru the journey of life... is like sometimes we dun strike a balance in our doing, thoughts and feelings... as a result we are blinded as we swing towards the extreme and neglect the other dimension of life...

Is like most working ppl or even students that life pace is so fast that you neglect about things around u... like family, relationships, friendship and leisure..... is like travelling in a car that is so fast that ur sight is so narrow and things beside are just blur due to the speed of the car or doing diving where the limited visibility blocks u from seeing wonderful marine life which might be a few metres away but unable to see it due to the poor visibility.... as a result many ppl are burnt out, fustrated, depressed and totally give up of wad they are called to do in life.... maybe the environment we live in are circumstances that force us to be like this as this society is focus on meritocracy.... and everyone is fighting hard in the rat race to be successful and wealthy and in uni life the bell curve where the stress comes from competition among peers rather than academic work.... and many the times a lot of other social factors that being a human is neglected... some even go against thier consciences and do wrong things to get their desire fulfilled....

Just blogged this out of my thoughts as i see ppl around me got burnt out.... got so resentful about life.... failed relationships.... indeed balance is the key of life... everything in life needs balance... an unbalance between work and rest or family might be the reason why communication breaks down and emotions went haywired during fatique and more, being rational and feelings in relationship like some ppl look for partners totally on citeria machiam like looking for maid or the other extreme totally based on feelings when themselves are blinded and find a wrong person which abuses them, and even in religion spirituality and humanity which u see some ppl go towards the extremes and become weird ppl or flaky ppl....

Hahah anyway this is just some random thoughts about life which i at times do thought of it... but i just didn't blog cos such thoughts just comes very random like in Buses, Trains, Church, School and even walking.... then when i reach home i tend to forget about it.... well think gotta hit my notes again for my EC2303 paper...

Life is Fragile

Think not long ago my fren Clement Passed away..... and a few days go i just realised my army fren Reuben passed away too in the recent dragonboat incident in Cambodia.... I was quite shocked too.... memories of the deaceased i had while interacting with them started to re-enacting in my mind.... people whom once nice to ya.... talk to ya.... joke with ya... are suddenly gone.... well maybe thats what one have to go through as an adult.... just like surprises of frens getting married and having children.... which is happening around me now.....

Yupz indeed life have been transfering from childhood to teenage years to young adult years and now going to transit to working adult in less than 2 yrs time... time passes really fast.... there is still many things in life i desire have not come to pass.... although i reaching my mid 20s... plus life is so volatile.... and fragile... after thinking all these... living life with a purpose seem to be important and significant in order to live a full life.... in the midst of being successful in future regarding career by being a boss myself with flexible working hours.... with a wonderful family in future.... what i like to see myself be is to be a gd fren to the ppl around me... a blessing which i lookfoward to be.... but many times in life now... i met obstacles... indeed doing the right thing like improving oneself and fight for a better future like obtaining a degree in NUS is like going against the current... out of these some of the reason is to gain acceptance which every human needs it but most of the reason is to fulfil who am i in this world...

Yupz... hahaha study too much liaoz.... just wondering things... and let what is in my mind flows out.... at the same time to reassure myself who am i... yeah.... =) for the frens out there... all the best for the remaining papers!!! shall meet after exams!!! cya!

Hardest Paper Encountered In NUS

Currently im still kind of demoralised by the EC3322 Industrial Organisation Exam.... The paper was very tough.... totally the opposite of what the past yr papers suggests which Tian Hao said pass year paper was easy... Me Nana Tian Hao and 2 other frens was discussing about it after the paper... everyone commented they screwed up the paper.... for me 25/60 marks was left blank cos no time to do... 2 hrs was never enough for the paper... Imagine the questions are even harder than the tutorial questions which the tutorial assignments took us 1 week to do and even discuss how to solve with just 3 computational questions.. exams also 3 computational questions... what Nana say was true.... we are not given a chance to show how much we study and worked hard for this module... is was so tough u dun even panic... u look at it u feel like give up.... yupz... feel rather unjustified.... but well... just hope at the end of the day... can get B and above... i already very satisfied...

Next to go is EC2303 and EC2373.... which EC2303 is my next challenge where i failed my mid term... i must do well for the final exam in order to get a decent grade of B and above... EC2373 is essay base which now i am trying very hard to get my readings started too... been procrastinating to read as i need the info to write for the essay... although is open book.. but i need the time to write rather than refering.... my ulitmate goal for this sem is to get a average semester non-cumulative CAP 3.5 minimum... as i wanna push up my grades for SEP... anyway below is the lastest Exam Schedule:

24 Nov 2007: SSD2210 - Managing Singapore's Built Environment, 9am @ SDE SR10-13, Open Book

26 Nov 2007: EC3322 - Industrial Organisations, 9am @ AS1-0201, Semi Open Book (Only 1 A4 Chit Sheet allowed)

05 Dec 2007: EC2303 - Foundations to Econometrics, 9am @ MPSH6, Semi Open Book (Only 1 A4 Chit Sheet allowed)

06 Dec 2007: EC2373 - Global Dimensions of the Singapore Economy, 1pm @ MPSH6, Open Book

1 Down 3 More To Go

Exams Exams Exams.... having migrane now after studying for my second paper... overload of info... one of the toughest module encountered... EC3322... here is the info about my exam:

24 Nov 2007: SSD2210 - Managing Singapore's Built Environment, 9am @ SDE SR10-13, Open Book

26 Nov 2007: EC3322 - Industrial Organisations, 9am @ AS1-0201, Semi Open Book (Only 1 A4 Chit Sheet allowed)

05 Dec 2007: EC2303 - Foundations to Econometrics, 9am @ MPSH6, Semi Open Book (Only 1 A4 Chit Sheet allowed)

06 Dec 2007: EC2373 - Global Dimensions of the Singapore Economy, 1pm @ MPSH6, Open Book

Anyway went for service on sat.... i guess some of the points said are very relevant to the ppl i know around me... something have to "die" so that new and better things can be spring forth... gotta let go of the past bad experience and embrace new life... keeping bitterness and resentment can only make things worst... forgive and forget.... life will be much better.... such principle can be seen from a seed... a seed has to die and to be buried in the soil and in due season become a big strong tree which bear more fruits and seeds... yupz... something bad might happened or a mistake is done.... but if u were to continue hold the bad experience, things, habits and feelings so tight and dun let go.... u won't get to see the better side or be better... so gotta die to urself so that new things can spring forth...

Non Air Con Buses and Happenings of Mugging

Think i had told some of my frens that i do enjoy taking non air con buses during early morning, Evenings and after rain.... i like to take such buses and let the wind hit my face.... many of the times such instances let me think about things and relfecting upoon myself... i do enjoy taking bus rides looking at the scenaries move as the bus moves.... love that since my growing up years since childhood.... there is one time when my CCA is at Kallang at 7am at KSTC i would leave my bukit timah home at 5.30am to take bus 173 change to 10 all the way to nicoll highway... now i enjoy taking 151 and 74 non aircon buses... best after raining...

Recently busy mugging EC3322 industrial ogranisation and heres the happening and progress

1) Finished lecture notes and tutorial 1 round... tough... hard to understand and digest info...

2) Tml planning to start writing my chit that i can bring in during exams...

3) Wednesday last day of EC3322 and move to SSD2216 on thursday for sat exam...

4) Sunday final round and crucial round of mugging

5) Last friday something embarassing happened.. i saw someone look like chrystal, a fren of mine i knew at zouk and really get to know during EA1101 Tutorial class as she is my group mate... and i mistaken the person as her... cos initially i look at her i give the look "are u my fren"... she also "replied" with the look " are u my fren"... both of us stratch our necks with that look on our face and i asked... "are u chrystal" she said "no".... Oh My gosh!!! so embarassing... i quickly say "sorry sorry" and i go look for my fren alvine....

6) Classical music like "Jupitor" from Holst is my mugging hits which can help me mug better...

7) Central Lib Video room is a nice place to mug

8) I need a brain that can understand things fast!!!

Conclusion: I hate exams... exams also make me emo.... =(

Top 100 Dive Sites in The World

Was surfing the web and found this... places in red are places i dived before

SCUBA Travel: The Independent Guide to Diving around the World have updated their list (2005) of top 100 dive sites from around the world.

Here is the list of the 100 top dive sites.

1) Yongala, Australia
2) Blue Corner Wall, Palau, Micronesia
3) Thistlegorm, Egyptian Red Sea
4) Navy Pier, Australia
5) Big Brother, Egyptian Red Sea
6) Barracuda Point, Sipadan Island (best place i dived)
7) Elphinstone Reef, Egyptian Red Sea
8) Shark and Yolanda Reef, Egyptian Red Sea
9) Manta Ray Night Dive, Kailua Kona, Hawaii
10) Great Blue Hole, Belize
11) Sodwana bay, South Africa
12) Sha'ab Rumi South, Sudan
13) Liberty, Bali, Indonesia
14) Similans, Thailand
15) Darwin Island, Galapagos
16) Bloody bay wall, Little cayman
17) The Zenobia, Cyprus
18) Jackson Reef, Egypt
19) Pedras Secas, Noronha, Brazil
20) Holmes Reef, Coral Sea, Australia
21) Puerto Galera, Philippines
22) Poor Knights, New Zealand(Coldest place i dived)
23) Shark Alley, Grand Cayman
24) Richelieu Rock, Thailand
25) Dos Ojos underwater cavern in Playa del Carmen, Mexico
26) Ras Mohammed, Egyptian Red Sea
27) Mnemba Island, Tanzania
28) Stingray City, Grand Cayman
29) Hanging Garden, Sipadan
30) Booroo, Isle of Man
31) Sound Drift, Isle of Man
32) Chickens Rock, Isle of Man
33) Darwin Arch, Galapagos
34) Barra Reef, Mozambique
35) Grand Central Station, Solomon Islands
36) Gizo, Solomon Islands
37) Wreck of the Bahama Mama, New Providence, Bahamas
38) Blue Hole, Malta
39) Turtle tavern, Sipadan
40) Hin Muang, Thailand
41) Great Basses reef, Sri Lanka
42) East Timor
43) lcyone, Cocos Island, Costa Rica
44) Tormentous, Cozumel, Mexico
45) Osprey Reef, Coral Sea, Australia
46) Eel garden, Dahab, Egyptian Red Sea
47) Diamond Rocks, Kilkee, Ireland
48) Boulari pass, New-Caledonia
49) Am chesonet, St Lucia WI
50) Aliwal Shoal, South Africa
51) RMS Wreck of the Rhone, British Virgin Islands
52) Santa Rosa Wall, Cozumel, Mexico
53) New Dropoff, Palau
54) Kunkungan, Lambeh Strait, N. Sulawesi, Indonesia
55) Great white wall, Tavieuni Fiji
56) Cenotes, Playa Del Carmen, Mexico
57) The Express, Kuredu, Maldives
58) Fujikawa Maru
59) Fernando de Noronha, Brasil
60) Port Jackson, Sydney, Australia
61) Punta Sur, Cozumel, Mexico
62) Sugar Wreck, Grand Bahama Island
63) Lake Malawi, East Africa
64) Blue Hole, Dahab, Egyptian Red Sea
65) Koh Tao, Thailand
66) James Barrie, Scapa Flow
67) Utila, Honduras
68) Mahdia
69) Los testigos islands, Venezuela
70) Umbria, Sudan
71) Amazing, Coral Sea
72) Dolphin House, Red Sea
73) El acuario, Catalina Island, Dominican Republic
74) Marbini Padre, Malaysia
75) Manta Point, Maldives
76) Fish Rock, Off South West Rocks in NSW, Australia
77) Office, Mozambique
78) Tepekong, Bali, Indonesia
79) Fanore, Ireland
80) South Point, Sipadan
81) Chios island, Greece
82) Half Moon Wall, Belize
83) Mayafushi, Maldives
84) Pixie pinnacle and pixie wall, GBR, Australia
85) Palancanar Bricks, Cozumel, Mexico
86) Bay of Pigs, Cuba
87) Tiputa pass, Rangiroa, New Zealand
88) Wolf Island, Galapogos
89) Dirty rock, Cocos Island, Costa Rica
90) Protea Banks, South Africa
91) Albatross Passage, Kavieng, PNG
92) Peleliu Express, Palau
93) Donovan's dream, Alor, Indonesia
94) Hin Daeng, Thailand
95) Sanganeb, Sudan
96) Manuelita, cocos island, costa rica
97) Gili air, Indonesia
98) Cement Wreck, Brunei
99) Cebu, Philippines
100) Panorama Reef, Safaga, Red Sea

Source: http://www.scubatravel.co.uk/

Nostalgic Days of NCC

I somehow come across the Nationa Cadet Corp website.... reminds me of the good old days of NCC since sec 1 to Poly Yr 3.... here are some photos i manage to find from my laptop... gd old memories...

A lot of life lessons learnt in this 14 days Course at Ang Mo Quee Camp, 39th CLT Course

Juniors in maroon, Seniors and Officers in White, Part A (Sec 1) Camp

Some of my Juniors with teacher officer Mr Latiff whom i trained them for 3 years since sec 1 to 3, very proud of them as they are dedicated, disciplined and they are the best in my eyes

Pillars of BBSS NCC(Sea) Unit which clinched 3 yrs of Gold Unit and Best Sea Unit during our reign with thanks to Mr Syam Lal, Mdm Jayanthi, SCLT and Pioneer of BBSS NCC Sea Adrian Chua and MSG Andrew Shen, Left to Right: SCLT Ng Cheong Yew, SCLT Kynneth Chang, SCLT Kouk Leong Huat & CLT Low Kok Liang

Leading my Juniors in NCC Day Parade 2002 as Sea Guard of Honour at SAFTI MI

Me and Eric as Guard of Honour Contingent Commander for NCC Day Parade 2002

International Cadet Exchange Programme and SAF-NCC Afiliation Programme, Exercise Wallaby 2002 Shoal Water Bay, Rockhampton Australia

10 Cent More Just Becos I Wanna Add More Meat After Choosing?

9 more days to exams.... will be starting my Industrial Organisation mugging soon.... this module i bid for 800+ points must get B+ minimum... somemore is the most interesting module i took for the whole sem...

Recently was hit by a crossroad... yupz which makes me rather vex.... but such crossroad make me realise something and continue to improve myself.... change is the only constant in life... moving myself towards the better... which i believe in everyone's heart that everyone wants to be a better person and a better fren.... Exams are coming hope i can put aside all the burdens i have and move into full gear for the final exams...

Today was discussing with my fren... the economic rice store of the arts canteen after the new canteen was built... the portion become lesser... realise the ppl at the stall also very inflexible... wad makes me feel so was that i bought a plate of rice with 2 meat and 1 vege which cost 2.30 with rice... after i see the dish was too little meat i wanna add one more meat... the auntie wanna charge me extra 80cents which is 3.10 where i could get it at 3.00... wad was ironic was that the difference adding a meat while choosing and after choosing add somemore must pay 10 cents more.. for me i dun mind the 10 cents but one thing really makes me feel ridiculous was that the auntie was inflexible and charge 3.10 instead of 3.00... since i dun wanna bother abt the 10 cents i just pay and go off... but the inflexibility really makes me feel kind of bizare... is just adding of an additional meat after finish choosing wanna add somemore also wanna charge more... yeah... but that dun really stop me from patronising the store... just that next time must choose enough liaoz to avoid add somemore after choosing...

Anyway today soemthing interesting happen... took the courage to apporach Felicia Chin to take a picture with her... hahaha... yeah... today mediacorp came to Arts canteen to flim some show about canteen food in SG schools... the Laksa and the Japanese Food was featured... hehe hope Jamie Teo come next time... =P Yeah.. below is the pic... enjoy! =) hehe hope Jamie Teo come next time... =P

Exam Season

Its been long i have updated here... welll exams are nearing... gotta study hard... today just submitted by SEP application... really hope can get a spot in my 1st choice university which is Univeristy of Queensland... Exams will be in 11 days time.... next few weeks going to be MIA... wish everyone do well in thier exams... looking forward to holidays!

Recent Happenings

Thursday was my free day so kind of lazy to go out buy lunch and i cooked my own lunch... Its been quite a while since i cook my own meal... below was just a simple meal with luncheon meat fried till crispy... omelette and white rice... the whole meal was cooked without using any oil... the oil used to cook the omelette was from pan frying the luncheon meat... lovein it...

After that Yvonne, called me wanna go eat chi char at a place at upper thomson road at lower pierce reservior area... so i went to sch meet Mee Pok and we took his car and reach the place.. the place is called casuarina road and the resturant is called Ban Leong Wan Hoe Seafood....

The food we have are Hot Plate Tofu, You Tiao Salad, Prawn paste Chicken, 2 Sri Lankan Chilli Crab and Deep Fried Man Tou... for me i also had a plate of Mee Goreng... the food there was delicious... $21 per pax not bad... After that we went to Swensons at Thomson Plaza... and we pay only $4 as there was a promotion buy 1 sundae get 1 free... yup so we enjoyed ourselves... since is been long i had such a wonderful time...

Friday was boring.... had lecture.... and Saturday went K Box with my Freshie.... thank Samantha for organising it... appreciated it... look forward for more outings yeah?

Yupz recently for me honestly i was going through very tough times.... i feel like a sandwich... squash between academia and people.... yupz gott juggle both stuff at the same time... trying to live life with a renewed mindset and a pure heart.... not easy... but i believe is good for me...

Anyway today was Arise and Build Service... made my 6 month faith pledge... and was very touched by what pastor was sharing... what he says indeed speaks about what i am going through now... Cos i often struck by something called night terror... when u are by urself in your own room at night... u tend to feel negative... all the promises u had, all the confidence and all the faith u have might get sucked away by such night terror who comes like a thief at night... is like u will feel negative about urself.. like perhaps im won't do well in my school, im not a gd fren, im not going to suceed and more .... yupz the terror grips my heart so tight that i feel very miserable.... sometimes i gotta pray till i sleep.... yupz even heroes of faith like abraham also went through such things... gotta build myself up to fight against such terror... gotta remember the good memories i have but recently i got overwelmed...

Theres also another verse in the bible that also somehow speaks about how i feel now...

Proverbs 13:12 "Hope deferred makes the heart sick. But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life."

Indeed i have been feeling like this for the past few years... but now for me i gotta focus on the second sentance... the promises i had... many a times i think i cannot make it... i won't do well.... the future seems to be bad... although things are not doing well now... making many mistakes... a lot of things seems to go wrong and in tension... there is still flaws in me... but one thing i know is that it doesn't matter how u start... it matters only on how u finish everything... is like studying in school... it doesn't matter how gd u mug and do ur assignments in the early part of the semester... it only matters when u took ur final exam and and hand up ur assigments which ur final grade matters... After graduate... people dun look how u mug and prepare ur exams... only the grade matters.... yupz looking towards a bright future i going to have... although i cannot see it.... and things are bad now... but i know eveyrthing will end well.... when i continue to focus on prospering my soul and live life with a renewed mindset and a pure heart...

Tml will be my first day preparing for Exam... gotta work hard and do well so that i can go for my SEP...

Summary

Kynneth has / is.....

- Finished his essay and got a B+
- Finished presentation wondering what grade he got
- Finished his EC3322 Tutorial hoping all his tutorial handed up can score a decent grade
- Addicted to Scoopz chocolate cookies ice cream and ice cream shake
- Rather uncertained
- Bored
- Worried about his EC2303 and EC3322
- Finished filling up SEP application at OPAS pending for submission
- Drank 7 cups of Milo from Milo Truck
- Hoping and Wishing for the better
- Wonder where to go and what to do during december holidays
- Decided to go KTV with his freshies on sat and forgo Sport Cell outing
- Thinking about learning Sailing but the cost is rather expensive
- Lazy and procrastinating to Mug
- Trying to live life with a renewed mind and pure heart
- Loves his friends, especially those who is concerned
- Sleeping late
- Too much things in his mind
- Tired

Off to sleep nites...