First Day of Tutorial

Thanks to my Ec3322 Lecturer... i had to stay in school for nothing for 3 hours as i was not told that today there is no Tutorial... Tutorial starts next week!!! ... argh!!!!! make me stone in sch for 3 hrs for nothing.. i would have gone home by 12pm... nevertheless... today just keep meeting different ppl like Sharon and Elaine, June and Grace, Selina, Yvonne Teck and Alvin, Sarah and Serene, Bing De Miss Hon (Kaiwei) and Soong Leong... to pass that 3 hrs of misery... hahaha... anyway feel very tempted to go Army Open House 2007 this coming Saturday... any takers? Anyway going to sleep now tml 9am tutorial!!! 5 min talk crap for 5% of the grade.. sounds like gd deal ah? =P

Return to Innocence

Nice song from 1994 by Enigma called "Return to Innocence" ... somehow describes how i feel recently...

Enigma - Return to Innocence

*Chants*
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence

*Chants*
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

*Chants*
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

*Chants*

Yeah... thanks ppl once again... indeed u all are my "Kai Xin Gou" during my down times =) blessed to have u all as frens =) ...

Settling Down

Its been almost 2 weeks of school.... currently falling sick.... sore throat and flu..... oh man... hate it... a lot of things happened within these 2 weeks.... rather tough.... Thank God i had wonderful frens around me to support me.... be it in academic issues.... friendship issues.... somehow "public relations" issues in school and last but not least relationship related issues... although im not attached.... yeah... just too many things about those issues i mentioned... sometimes it really hard to blog it.... cos some of the issues are very personal and private.... but today somehow i am relieved cos i rant to some ppl who im close with as frens.... some of them understand how i feel which i do appreciate...

yeah.... some ppl might misunderstand me... for example being too nice... I keep telling myself its ok... as long i ask my heart i mean no harm one... nobody can accuse u... cos ppl might just think too far already... Thanks for this advice...

I also got many nice female frens... sometimes ppl might misunderstand or even judge immediately... those ppl who knows me won't say wrong things about me... but somehow other ppl's mouth will start to yak yak and something that are not true might fly around like flooding waters... and worst somehow i am being mistakenly recongised as someone else... haiz.. same advice still applicable... as long i ask my heart... my consciences is clear... i just treat them as frens only... im fine....

Now i also keep telling myself cannot easily like ppl liaoz... if not the tragedy in the month of June will happen again... yupz... so now just let nature take its course.. if got ppl like me good la... if dun have someday i beleive it will happen... yeah... Focus!!! =)

Somemore now transition period... maybe thats y i am more prone to such issues ba... trying to settle down with school life... anyway i got my tutorial slot which clashed with my lecture on tuesday... yeah!!!! and i mugged on par with the progress of the lectures... yeah!!! never so hardworking in my whole life.... Today went to appeal for my SSD2210 Tutorial and after much counsultation and pleading i got the tutorial slot!!! yeah!!! Below is the Modules i am allocated finally and the finalised Timetable of mine!!!! remember to jio me during my breaks!!! =)

Modules Allocated:
EC2303 - Foundation of Econmetrics
EC2373 - Global Economic Dimensions of Singapore
EC3322 - Industrial Organisation
SSD2210 - Managing Singapore Built Environment

1) Monday -
1000 to 1200 SSD2210 Lecture
1200 to 1500 Lunch break
1500 to 1600 EC3322 Tutorial

2) Tuesday -
0900 to 1100 SSD2210 Tutorial (Odd wks)
1100 to 1200 Tea Break (Odd wks)
1000 to 1200 EC2303 Lecture for (Even wks)
1200 to 1400 EC3322 Lecture
1400 onwards Lunch Break.

3) Wednesday -
1100 to 1200 EC2303 Tutorial
1200 to 1300 Tea Break
1300 to 1400 EC2373 Tutorial
1400 onwards Lunch Break

4) Thursday -
Free Day
Mug or watch webcast
Free for any lunch appointment

5) Friday -
Free for Lunch anytime
Mug or watch webcast
1600 to 1800 EC2373 Lecture

P.S The above post took me quite a bit of courage to say out =)
Disclaimer: The above post is just to blog out how i feel and clarify things and also somehow to encourage myself.... nothing more than that....

Revelation

Going to church never fails to brighten up my days... the house of God indeed is a place where i can find peace where He is the prince of peace... Jehovah Shalom.... On Sat went for Service and Joyce Meyer came... yeah is like so many things happened for the past few weeks in my soul... a lot of emotions turmoils.... many of the times i feel so "rejected" but on sat i felt peace again... is like ah.... resting on a rocking chair relaxing... speaking about that Joyce Meyer used the rocking chair to illustrate her point... out of that i gain some revelation about my life in fact reminder in life....

1) Live your life TODAY... live on the things you have now rather than the things u do not have (especially treasure the friends you already have which treat u very well) .... do not live in the past letting the past hold u back and in the future letting fear and worry grips you down...

2) Stop trying to be someone whom you already are.....

3) (This is interesting fact i learnt) No matter who you are... how good you are... how nice you are... statistically has shown that minimum 10% of the people whom you know don't like you....

Yeah... Hope the above points can somehow help someone who is reading this blog =) is just something i wanna share cos i find it very helpful....

Anyway went DXO on Sat Night after Service.... Thank God theres Sharon and Elaine... the twin papaya sisters hahaha... these pair never fails to brighten up my dayz... yeah.... Thanks Girls...

Me and Elaine

Sharon Elaine and Uncle Bing

Jamie and Me

Anyway today went for Josephine Cheang 21st Birthday Party.... Happy Birthday Jo... really appreciate the friendship we had since 2005 Aug... we know each other almost exactly 2 yrs liaoz... hahaha...

Bday Girl and me

Recieved New Comment - 38 Years Ago

The Topic above is justified by the below picture.... see the bottom part being circled red?... yeah thats wat i discovered today while i surf my friendster... hahaha 38years ago... oh man.. im not even born... hahaha

Yeah... now keeping my fingers crossed that i can continue to do SSD2210 and get the odd week 9am tutorial... cos thats the slot will not clash with my foundation of econmetrics mid term exam... God help me!!! today kind of feeling dissapointed also... is like somehow ppl like to stereotype ppl... judging ppl on the surface without knowing the person well... and rather keeping the comment to oneself.... they spread the negative comment which is not true without knowing the person well and then tell others... spreading it like wild fire... wat the bible says is true... Life and Death lies in the power of the Tongue from Proverbs... is very true... such statement can destroy innocent ppl causing character murder...

Anyway putting those things aside... today i finally had Milo from Milo truck!!! yeah!!! 7 cups at one go... shiok ah.... tml when it comes i will drink more... Milo... Yum Yum!!!!! anyway is a blessing to know Sharon and Elaine ... they dun fail to brighten me up.... same as Merrisa and Yvonne.... and others who show care and concern while im feeling down... thanks ppl! =) and also oei oei hear me rant :P

Celebrity Collage

Neither Here Nor There

Currently... i feel like im neither here nor there... school started... i feel quite lost in terms that i am still lagging... still feeling that im on Holiday... is like finding a bit hard to blend into sch life... after such a long break too... tml finally can settle Oweek Treasury Stuff with jeremy which i am busy with... other than that... wat makes me feel that im neither here nor there is that i had made a lot of Frens during Arts Camp and Oweek... is like so far my frenships are so on the surface... is like wad i post last entry i have quantity of ppl i know but the quality is not there... yeah... plus some old problems too... but wanna thank those ppl who show concern when im feeling blue... the tags... the sms.. the msn msges... yeah.... thanks ppl...

Short term Wishes:
1) Spend more time with my frens whom is out there for me...
2) Able to do well in school...
3) Focus on Quality Friendship than Quantity...
4) Be a Blessing to my frens around me...
5) Drink Milo from Milo truck...
6) Able to do my SSD2210...
7) Oweek Treasury stuff to finish...
8) Go diving again...
9) Join NUS Dive subclub Management Committee...
10) Spend more time with God...
11) being loved by my frens

Yeah... Testing time i going through again... hmmm... somehow many ppl are asking about my love life... in terms like what kind of girl u like... anybody in mind... among a certain group u like someone... that kind of question and other related question to relationship... think i share this in my blog before but somehow my answer was very simple... just tanned sweet and preferbly petitte will do... but actually most important is about ablity to share one's soul with each other... yeah... think last time i keep looking out... tired liaoz... now is when it happens it happens... somehow like "sit down and relax"... hoping someone likes me... hahaha feel so pai seh to share this... but is the truth... yeah...

Anyway thanks ppl for the invitation for lunch, breakfast and Hokkien mee... haha... dun stop jioing me... outings dinner lunch "dates" coffee tea movies are all welcomed...

School Reopening Blues

Day 2 of school... i still busy doing Oweek Treasury Stuff... trying to settle all the payment, refunds, receipts and updating the account... after Oweek end all the work start to come in... now trying to bid for my 5th module and i still can't get it and tml is final round liaoz... haiz.. think going to department office to make noise soon... eversince school started i feel very disconnected from my frens... somehow i felt that i need quality frenships than quantity... as u can see my post is like short sentances and switch from point to point fast cos in my mind there are many things now... so many problems.... mainly interpersonal relationship.... yupz... currently feeling quite bluey.... yeah blue.... anyway if ya wanna meet me for lunch in sch do contact me!!! yeah.... anyway below are the photos taken during Dive Camp in Tioman... finally got the pics

On our way to Tioman

Moving towards our first dive at Renggis Island

Rare Blackspotted Moray Eel

Yellow Box Fish

Juvenile Sweetlip

Juvenile Barracudas

Favourites of most divers

Aggresive clownfish attacking me

Playing with Sea Urchins

"Spanish Dancer" Nudibranch

Hawkbill Turtle

2 Giant Moray Eels

Rare Colourful Nudibranch

Me posing

My Buddy Amanda and Me

The Dive Gang

Diver Below!!!
Enjoying the sunset during surface interval before night dive

Cuttlefish at night

Giant Hermit Crab at night

Blue Spotted Stingray at night

Last Dive....
Leisure Divers in Dive Camp 2007 Tioman

The End of Holidays, The Start of School

The Big O has finally come to an end... but is the beginning of many friendships we earned during Oweek... especially for the freshies... hope the Freshies had fun... cos as an O commer the decisions we make and the sacrifices we make is always back to this phrase "its for the freshies"... yeah... unlike Arts Camp... this time no photo whoring for me cos no OG to photowhore with... Kudos to all my fellow O Commers whom toil, sacrifice and pour thier hearts out for Oweek 07.. once again my pleasure to work with them... although during the nine days we went through a lot of crap... but Oweek this year is a success! yeah!!! may the frensip i made in O comm be closer as days go by in school... anyway was kind of dissapointed that Arts didn't win anything this yr for Rag.. but in my hearts they are the best... yeah man! 3 Cheers and 3 Cheers for Arts Rag!! Hip Hip Huray!! Hip Hip Huray!! Hip Hip Huray!!...

Yeah currently still short of one module... trying to bid during Round 3A... So far the modules im taking is

EC2303 - Foundation of Econmetrics, Lecture: Tuesday 10am to 12pm
EC2373 - Global Economic Dimensions of Singapore, Lecture: Friday 4pm to 6pm
EC3322 - Industrial Organisation 1, Lecture: Tuesday 12pm to 2pm
SSD2210 - Managing Singapore's Built Environment, Lecture: Monday 10am to 12pm

Module i am trying to bid is either EC3353 Health Economics or EC3333 Financial Economics... Tml is the start of school... kind of like never really enjoyed my holidays... nevertheless... looking forward to meet my old frens and my new frens!!! yeah.. i love frens =)

Anyway one thing which suddenly come to my mind and i find it very true.... in order to be successful and to sustain it.. the most important factor is your character.... is like a person who wins a 1 million dollar prize.. but dun have somehow like "character" to sustain it... at the end of the day the person might just spend it all and back to ground zero... this also leads me to see in terms of relationship also quite true.. it is the character of 2 person that ultimately upholds the relationship... hope u can understand the 2 points i stated cos i admit im not very gd at words to explain my thoughts in my mind... roughly catch the idea and ponder... in summary... as your life prospers... your soul also must prosper to sustain the prosperity and success in life u have gained... if there is a huge gap... danger of the man falling is very high....

The Big O

For the past few days many things happen... in the period of almost 9 days from 2nd August until now... i have gone thru many emotion roller coasters within such timespan in Oweek... indeed is my priviledge to be an O commer called by Tien kwan to be the tresurer... responsibility is to safe guard, Plan, and account the budget we had for O week... therefore im towards the admin side together with Uncle Bing... many times i am very happy seeing my fellow O comm frens, knowing more ppl especially my fellow O commers and freshies and rah rah thru the camp... but sometimes i feel emotionally down... having the struggle that did i do my job well.. did i offend anybody with the way i work... and the biggest down was having the doubt that am i in the o comm... is like somehow i feel im not part of the family... a sense of belonging... but i will not blame anyone cos everybody is also busy with their stuff also... and my job is behind the scenes one... i do understand =) i also wanna appreciate those who shown care and concern abt me when im down... especially i lost my cashbox key when i being dunk and stripped of my undergarments in the sea... yupz... but nevertheless i still LOVE my O comm... i do treasure the new frenships in o comm like knowing Fang Ling, Bingde, Caleb, Tien Kwan, Ethel, Rosni, Juling, Zhimin, Sandra, Rosni , Minjoo, Lawrence, Jezz, Guan Zhen, Remmy and more and old frenships like Soon Leong, Cherie, Shimin, Kaiwei... wanna say sorry also for things like im unable to help like being a validator in Rag day...

Neverthless O week is still fun and exicitng... i still enjoy working in O comm somehow... below are the pictures taken from Oweek, Rag, and Flag... Enjoy...

Registration Booth at Oweek Day1

Shimin and Me welcomes you to The Big O!

Fang Ling welcomes you to The Big O!

The Logisitcs aka Zoom Team welcomes you to The Big O!

Me and Juling who can cook and bake well !!! O comm always have goodies must thank her =)

Me and Uncle Bing... I'm Rich He is Poor!

Night Venture Peeps.... Lolx

Soon Leong Pout his Lips during Flag Day to Entertain us lolx.. Happy Birthday Soon leong by the way!!!

Flag Day working in progress after all the tins are collected...

Yuen Mei and Me... she looks scary :P keke

Serene and me working on the Rag main float Soft tech =) Isn't she sweet? KeKe =P

Merissa and Yvonne.... my besties in sch... always there to care, concern and support me when im down.. thank you girls =)

Oh yah Happy 42nd Bday Singapore!!!! wah watch the NDP esp the military parade reminds me of i once wore the no.1 uniform holding the sword during NCC day at Safti MI... was talking abt these with Cherie... oh man the memories in NCC floods back... =)

GOH NCC Day Parade 2002... Me in mid =)

Just a Little Ranting

Yeah as the title suggests... this post is a negative post... but will blog something better soon... but this few days i seem to feel very moody... dunno y also... is like... somehow u feel that u are not good enough...i somehow feel that i like quite not up to the mark... i always have a feeling that huants me that ppl dun like u.... oh u did soemthing wrong... yeah since young i have such phobia... making me have problems to build friendships... been living with it since young cos i was always bullied by ppl who are younger than me... yupz... thank God now im much better... been telling myself... stop feeling the way that ppl are rejecting u.... yeah is a big struggle in life which i need to overcome... feeling insecure... now is huanting me back again... its another battle to fight again... yeah no hard feelings towards anyone... is just myself im weak in such areas in life...

But anyway after i packed my stuff and meet my Fellow A hse frens i had a gd laugh and thank you for waiting for me to come and have dinner and I appreciate it... wanna thank those who show concern too... and to my fellow O commers.... is my honour to work with u all... you all are wonderful ppl... love u all lots! 3 cheers and 3 cheers for my fellow O commers!!! hip hip huraay X3