The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You

Sometimes how i wish someone did dat for me just as mentioned in the song....

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

Weight

my heart weighs a tonne now.... fatique and many factors are pushing me... sometimes i really wanna hide in a place that i never come out... though i face life with a gd counternance now... but i dunno how long i can last.... being nice always kena "eaten" by ppl... wonder when will i see light.. i really dunno...

Reflections

Dive leading this weekend seems to be the most challenging one i encounter so far out of the 3 trips i went as a dive master... What Perry said was right... we have very demanding customers... all the customers seems to be very experience divers.. as a new dive master is quite a challenge... plus the weather conditions makes it even harder... plus this is a large group.... as a result there is some hiccups... but through it all... i learn many lesson as a dive master... which such experience which is kind of bad but helps me to be a better dive professional... after much thoughts... feedback from others and perry... i guess i gotta improve on my command and control, slowing down in dive leading... check more often my divers... deployment of divers.... and not to fight currents unnecessary... and to be more firm... sometimes is not gd to be a mr nice guy 100% of the time... sometimes gotta be real firm to makes things better... like what perry said... is better to piss off the customer on the boat than in the water... which things can turn even more nasty... writing this blog is kind of remind myself and let such lesson imprint in myself deeply so i will improve.... anyway project AWARE weekend was successful... we clear the crown of thorns, coral watching and clear some rubbish.... at the end of the day the customers are rather satisfied which make me feel kind of eased... managed to spot the rare decorator crab... crab spawning... great barracudas... Morays... cuttlefish.... Blue Spotted Sting rays... and more marine life... now i am thinking whether i should dive lead this weekend as exams are approaching and i am quite tired.... hmmm....

Sick

Yes as a title suggests i have fell sick and tml i gotta lead a dive group... really pray dat God will heal me and make me well to lead with excellence tml... yeapz.... school has been quite busy and i am just plain lazy to do anything after the hell week happened a few weeks ago.... very soon gotta mug soon for the Finals.... currently planning what should i do during december holidays... trying to get a temp job to finance my hobby and maybe for grad trip next year....

yupz recently my emotions really went for a roller coaster ride... yupz.... guess my heart has really gone thru so much crap dat i am quite numb on certain stuff.... has always wonder when the day of victory will come... i always look to the sky and wonder.... will i walk out of this... when i say yes i have walked out from this and move on... things always seem so impossible... maybe dats the time God works... i am never angry with Him or blame Him for the things happening now and those not.... but i know one day the victory will come... but the wait is very painful.... is the process that is tormenting me.... but one thing for sure i have grown so much stronger from all these nonsense.... but the sting is still there.... i just want to be myself and not afraid that people will mistaken me... Gavin Degraw song... I don't wanna be... the song is also the song of One tree hill.... which always tells me all i have to do is to be me and have a peace of mind... indeed around me there is a lot of liars.... a lot of imposters... a lot of indentity Crisis.... everywhere i turn... thought i know the way i say is rather ambigious... but those who knows me well will know... yeah quite personal stuff....

Anyway today went for Yvonne's 21st Bday... thanks girl girl for being a gd fren who always concern about me and somehow protect me as a fren by telling me warnings... really apprieciate it.... wish u had a gd day and a wonderful time with QY soon.. :P anyway below the pics is taken during the bday... =)

Update Soon

Will blog after i finish my assignment for financial economics... which is due on thursday!!! cya!

Extinction of Milo

Pretty Sad when Milo has been extinct in NUS especially FASS when all the milo vending machines are gone.... very sad... no more my favourite drink to mug and study .... :(

M.I.A

Sorry for being MIA for quite a while... just being lazy to blog and sometimes dun really have the mood to blog... it seems like i got 1 million of things on my mind that at times i just can't really straighten my thoughts... plus recently just pondering... guess i really met many ungrateful ppl and unappreciative ppl...

My life always seems to be a spectator kind of life... i can only watch i cannot get my hands on... sitting at the sideline... and yah... somehow blend into the surroundings kind... so many thoughts but so hard to express... Guess in my life... intangible blessings seems to be the one i looking for... all the financial blessing... material kind of blessing doesn't really perk me up...

Anyway on the lighter side... just realised my counter hit 20000 in less than 2 yrs... wanna thank everyone especially the faithful ones reading.. thanks...

Jacket

After much period of rest from Air Weapons the below picture is how it looks like 2 to 3 weeks ago progress... managed to get one a perfect 10.10 with a surprise...

After 2 weeks... managed to get the grouping much smaller... and with the help of the jacket... below pics shows it all


Finally finished my presentation on Fri... every goes rather well except one word i said wrong which create a jiggling commotion in the class... when the word suppose to be month i uttered yrs... ppl was like wah the cow can live so long ah lol... yupz... now the only thing left is constant monitoring of Financial econs project and mid term on friday... one last quiz from my GEK module at the end of the sem and final exams and i am done... really hope this seem breakthrough will come and Friday's Airweapon training is very enjoyable for me =)

NUS Fights Climate Change

Students of NUS should be familiar that NUS is having a NUS Fights Climate Change campaign in order to go green towards saving Gaia, which is our mother earth... like reducing air con to certain temperature and duplex printing.... posters of turtle eating plastic and other designs are everywhere in the arts canteen especially at the stores... and a huge banner is seen at the entrance of Arts Canteen.... but as you look to the left... which is opposite LT9... the statement seems to be oxymoronic... why? cos apparently beside the canteen there is a forest like vegetation but many trees are cut down for dunno what purpose and is pretty massive... so is like kind of funny when the banner is there but on ur left while walking towards the canteen the scene dun match it... hahaha some food for thought on a random basis today...

2 Mid Term Test

Sunday was the F1 Singapore Grand Prix.... F1 is indeed great... loud engines... ear deafening sound... was really glad my gd fren cat lover Alicia watched with me... hahaha at least got company... was a very drama mama race... indeed the last become the first... but while i was watching F1 i missed the whale shark in Dayang which Perry's group saw it... I want to see whaleshark!!! but in the name of 2 mid term tests... i felt i am forgiven haha...no choice man...

During Monday... taking 2 Mid term test on the same day which is both level 3000 econs is never a gd idea... but well this sem so unfortunate i kena... which both papers i concluded dat i did very badly.... worst performance ever... i tried hard to study for it... but still cannot make it.... sighz... well.. but when i step in and do the paper... i can't answer the questions... =( Now just finish the presentation slides for GEK module... I need to prepare the script soon for this friday presentation... with all these work plus the emotional baggage i been carrying... yeah stress is really written on my face by having pimple outbreaks....

Finally today i can really take a breather and life seems back to normal... life for me has been sitting by the side watching... but it is never as gd as be in the place urself... been on the bench for long long time... when will breakthough come? i wonder...