Outgoing

Recently i did a few test on facebook here and there.... one of them say best quality or my strength is being outgoing and warm in terms of my personality... for example....

"Your best quality is out-going! People like you because you are fun to be
around and no one ever knows what you will do next. Also you are not afraid to say or do whatever you want"

"Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical and always
interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but
sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you
as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who will always cheer them up and help them out."

Well i dun really totally agree with the center of attraction part... but well sometimes being outgoing is not easy... it takes a lot of strength emotionally to do it... as i type this post i really dunno how to use words to express how i feel now... many times in life i feel something still missing... yupz... especially when i am left alone... a lot of thoughts run through my mind... i know i have a great future lies ahead... but sometimes as a human u do encounter fear in life... nowadays i find myself handle fear better than in the past where i allow fear to swallow me up and dip into worries and depression... but still the sting is still there... where u feel kind of crappy... yupz thats honestly i feel at times... maybe is part and parcel of human life... i really hope breakthrough will come...

Well put aside all the "emoness" today celebrated Selina's Birthday! happy birthday girl!!! enjoyed myself today but the above mentioned feelings suddenly hit me again... yeah is very irritating....