Recent Happenings
Thursday was my free day so kind of lazy to go out buy lunch and i cooked my own lunch... Its been quite a while since i cook my own meal... below was just a simple meal with luncheon meat fried till crispy... omelette and white rice... the whole meal was cooked without using any oil... the oil used to cook the omelette was from pan frying the luncheon meat... lovein it...
After that Yvonne, called me wanna go eat chi char at a place at upper thomson road at lower pierce reservior area... so i went to sch meet Mee Pok and we took his car and reach the place.. the place is called casuarina road and the resturant is called Ban Leong Wan Hoe Seafood....
The food we have are Hot Plate Tofu, You Tiao Salad, Prawn paste Chicken, 2 Sri Lankan Chilli Crab and Deep Fried Man Tou... for me i also had a plate of Mee Goreng... the food there was delicious... $21 per pax not bad... After that we went to Swensons at Thomson Plaza... and we pay only $4 as there was a promotion buy 1 sundae get 1 free... yup so we enjoyed ourselves... since is been long i had such a wonderful time...
Friday was boring.... had lecture.... and Saturday went K Box with my Freshie.... thank Samantha for organising it... appreciated it... look forward for more outings yeah?
Yupz recently for me honestly i was going through very tough times.... i feel like a sandwich... squash between academia and people.... yupz gott juggle both stuff at the same time... trying to live life with a renewed mindset and a pure heart.... not easy... but i believe is good for me...
Anyway today was Arise and Build Service... made my 6 month faith pledge... and was very touched by what pastor was sharing... what he says indeed speaks about what i am going through now... Cos i often struck by something called night terror... when u are by urself in your own room at night... u tend to feel negative... all the promises u had, all the confidence and all the faith u have might get sucked away by such night terror who comes like a thief at night... is like u will feel negative about urself.. like perhaps im won't do well in my school, im not a gd fren, im not going to suceed and more .... yupz the terror grips my heart so tight that i feel very miserable.... sometimes i gotta pray till i sleep.... yupz even heroes of faith like abraham also went through such things... gotta build myself up to fight against such terror... gotta remember the good memories i have but recently i got overwelmed...
Theres also another verse in the bible that also somehow speaks about how i feel now...
Proverbs 13:12 "Hope deferred makes the heart sick. But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life."
Indeed i have been feeling like this for the past few years... but now for me i gotta focus on the second sentance... the promises i had... many a times i think i cannot make it... i won't do well.... the future seems to be bad... although things are not doing well now... making many mistakes... a lot of things seems to go wrong and in tension... there is still flaws in me... but one thing i know is that it doesn't matter how u start... it matters only on how u finish everything... is like studying in school... it doesn't matter how gd u mug and do ur assignments in the early part of the semester... it only matters when u took ur final exam and and hand up ur assigments which ur final grade matters... After graduate... people dun look how u mug and prepare ur exams... only the grade matters.... yupz looking towards a bright future i going to have... although i cannot see it.... and things are bad now... but i know eveyrthing will end well.... when i continue to focus on prospering my soul and live life with a renewed mindset and a pure heart...
Tml will be my first day preparing for Exam... gotta work hard and do well so that i can go for my SEP...
