Exhausted
Hi ppl.. sorry for the inactivity here... I'm just tired... pardon me....
You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving. And Love is about "I Want to", not "i Have to"
Seems like after 3 July 2010 fee restructure, my bus fare had increased tremendously relative to the rate increase by PTC or Transit link for the past few yrs (increase by 1 or 2 cents)... I realised 90% of the fares I paid now increased by 10 to 20 cents and the decrease which the authorities claim only 2-4 cents decrease which make up the remainder 10% of my transport fee... now on a week basis... my fare increased by 2 to 3 dollars and could potentially increase to 8 to 12 dollars per month.... Guess the new fee structure only benefits those ppl who do a lot of transfers....
PTC claims that the bus fee structure is to be fair to everyone pay fees... but i felt is a move to increase bus fare and increase revenue... why is dat so?
1) basic fares now is at 71 cents... in the past is 69 cents? isn't it an obvious increase of price by using a shroud to cover by saying now is a fairer way to charge
2) now the price breakdown is much more (look at bus stops the fare breakdown)... if you do economics and do some calculation... you will be able to reap more revenue to capture the different price paid by consumers, which is similar to price discrimination...
Just my personal thoughts... dunno whether others are experiencing increase in transport fees?
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10:24 AM
Exhausted! Yes I am very tired... I dunno why I am not able to sleep well after sports camp even though I only have average of 2-3hrs of sleep... I was totally zonk out at work and also emo... After a week of excitment and fun.. finally I am back to reality... and indeed reality is harsh... cleared many emails today and I seem not able to focus due to the fatigue... today is also the day I worked in my new office... Is pretty troublesome to get breakfast, lunch and fetch ice cold water as everything seems to be very far... =( I really hope I can sleep well tonight and get used to the new office soon...
Sports Camp 2010 is indeed a fun camp with lots of fun ppl... I would like to congratulate Aayush and Kah Hwee for a successful Sports Camp... I would also like to thank them together with Runi and Boon Hui for giving me a chance to take photos for the camp.... I had fun for the week with the camp and I felt my leave was worth taken... I made many new frens especially with the O comm... you guys rock! =) I also learn a lot while shooting for the camp... hope my skills can improve after sports camp and also lynette's birthday...
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8:47 PM
Finally the day has come.... every year is always a struggle it will make my yr gd or bad... though this may sound a little demanding and insecure... but every year my wish is too really celebrate my special with ppl who cherish and appreciate me... My family do not have a habit to celebrate birthdays and special occasions... Hence when I was a kid... I was very jealous of other kids that their parents throw a party for them and ask other kids to celebrate his or her birthday... overtime... this jealousy and envy had been part of me every single yr... same goes to festive seasons like christmas... sometimes i tried so hard to make it happen yet it is not genuine... I kind of felt a little down when June is approaching... dreading the same old sad thing is going to happen (same for valentines day, christmas, Chinese New Yr) this year... but somehow i tell myself that is either geniune from people who really appreciate or leave it... no point trying to hard yet causing even more damage to the relationship you have with ppl and ur own soul...
These 2 yrs had been gd as my sports camp o comm in 2009 and my dive shop frens in 2010 celebrated my bday... i really do appreciate the effort to make my day special... last yr i got shaved at the top of vivo city and this yr i got stripped off my pants and fins underwater at Sebukang Bay (Thanks for not stripping my trunks off) plus almost kena smashed into the cake pan while being tasked to lick it.. I can say myself to be fortunate to have ppl celebrating my bday and i do do appreciate it.. however sometimes i do yearn for a group of ppl whom i can from now be together till we grow old kind of frenship...
Anyway i would like to thank Erny, Cindy, Nana, Chandra Dewi, Marg, Perry, Lester, Darren, Jonathan, Lloyd and Jeremy for celebrating my Bday at Dayang... thanks for the effort and also the cake by Darren... I was happy to see Dolphins at the surface at Lang Bay during the second dive (too bad it was spoilt by an ang mo girl who plunge into the water hard to scare them off before it could reach our boat)... was very happy too dat i clear my deep dive specialty too at 40m (thanks Perry!)
I would also like to thank Runi and Felicia for meet me up on Thurs for a bday dinner! you girls rock k! I would also like to thank every who FB and sms me happy bday! you all made my day =)
Anyway the below photos are some long due photo taken during last week company family day at the Zoo.. =)




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7:43 PM
Last Sunday noon... I lost my Samsung Omnia while taking the shuttle from Bishan to City Hall... I don't know why I am so calm when i lost my phone (just a little anxious)... I think through and find all the things I should do to try find back my phone.. so I seek help from the person in charge of the shuttle bus... However, was in vain after a 5 hour wait... but I really wanna thank the transport co-ordinator for YoG Asian Arena Qualification for Track and Field... they really did a great job trying to find my phone... though the phone was kind of lost for Good... but i really appreciate they took all the effort they could.. Kudos... wanna Thank May who was the Bus Fleet leader...
Hence, I am thinking of what phone to get and I decided to get iphone 3gs... paying another 518 for a new phone for a lost 1.5yr old phone which is so scratched and cui... To my surprise, my dad paid for my phone even when i already took out my credit card.. thanks Dad... I really hope i dun lose my phone again... In my 10 yrs of using a mobile phone. this is the first time i lost my phone...
So please let me know your contacts again so I can save into my phone and avoid asking "who is this?" =)
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4:37 PM
Hahaha I never knew i appeared on News paper (Mypaper Pg4) on 11 May 2010. Is kind of nice ppl smsing you asking is that you in the paper... somehow it translates that ppl still do care... thanks ppl for the sms =)... anyway had some random shooting and here are some of the photos i really love...


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10:04 AM
I wonder why I am feeling strange ever since Saturday.... I was back to a church on Saturday and things seems to be weird... weird in the sense that how I felt last yr is coming back to haunt me again... It has been almost a yr ever since I left church.... It was a tough decision to leave church.... One reason I left was to stop all the pain I am suffering... I no longer want to be a "gd" person somehow as it does not really pay ... is like some kind of expectation kind of thingy.... I also dun wanna face the fact that i am alienated and many more triggered the decision....
Things indeed somehow cool down and I start to feel better as in I feel liberated... no expectations... I know is kind of silly doing this but I felt is the only way i can escape from this... I rather stay in the cold side of the world by myself than staying in a loving environment where i am not the recipient...
Now I seem to feel lost again and I dun like this feeling....
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8:28 PM
Was out diving at Tioman over the earth day weekend... Was doing my deep diver specialty course and currently left one more dive to certification.... This trip was a big group... great training for Adam as a DMT for such a large group.... A lot of people say Tioman dive sites are boring and dead... however this is not true....I had a total of 5 dives over the weekend at Soyak Island, Pirate Reef, Renggis Island, Marine Park and Tomok. Guess the only boring dive was marine park as the vis was extremely poor due to many OWD students... I managed to see many marine creatures that the island could promise... during the 2 days of diving... managed to see nice Nudibranches, Black Tip Reef Sharks, Turtles, White Banded Sea Snake, Cuttlefish, Glass Shrimps, Great Barracudas, school of Barracudas and more.... Marine life beyond the sandy patch from the reef seemed to be untouched and different.... there are many soft corals at the sandy patch at great depth away from the reef... Guess I might go back to do more exploratory dives...
On the other hand... manage to make more new frens and get to know some frens better... ppl like Dave, Xin Hua, Nana, Erny, Raymond, Yumi, Chandra, Adam, Junaida. Look forward to dive with u all again! Perhaps I shall go Dayang over the Vesak Day long weekend.
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6:55 PM
Today was at the train heading home after borrwing an advanced open water manual from my fren for my Deep Dive Specialty this weekend at Tioman... I managed to see an article from a local chinese newspaper reporting about how income affect a rating of a woman towards a man.... For example... there is Man A, B and C. Based on looks and initial interactions with the man. The women gave their ratings for the man... not knowing the man individual income yet... Man A scored a 8, Man B scored a 6 and Man C scored a 3.5 .... after releasing the income of each man... the ratings are ... Man A with income 2400 dollars a month scored a 6.... Man B with income 5600 scored a 8 and Man C with income of 8200 scored a 8.... conclusion is that nowadays A significant number Singaporean woman are very realistic... once knowing the income the rating changes.... which gives me an idea they like $$$ not the man.... For me I totally dun like girls after my money... I felt that is important to have $$$ but is not everything...
Knowing all these... i realised there is a disequilibirum in woman and man... lets look at this in a rationale view... assuming 2 woman... 1 high upkeep 1 lowupkeep... both are pretty and both character same (homgenous good)... rich man has a choice... a rationale man will choose the one lowupkeep... easier for him to make his wife happy .... happy wife happy husband.... Hence rich man prefer ladies with low upkeep who dun look high up to $$$ ... therefore... there is a mismatch....
Perhaps i am single until now cos i have not met D one.... yeapz... is kind of hard to find girls who are not $$ driven and orientated.... is a rare gem to find girls who are not realistic and looks things is a more "humanistic" way.... perhaps what i share ppl may not agree... but this is just my opinion.... =)
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10:44 PM