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You Are Still Beautiful

2010-11-14T12:41:00.007+08:00

After a long period of not blogging, I felt a sudden urge to blog, especially after seeing a video clip today. Totally melted my heart.

No matter how bad or screwed up are you, when someone comes to you and still say "you are still beautiful", I guess that's the best gift you can ever have from that person. I guess love is the most wonderful thing God has ever created for human being to connect with one another and with Him.

Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment

2010-09-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

Import of Foreign Talent

2010-08-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

Recently, PM Lee gave his annual speech to the nation. The The National Service Recognition Award (NSRA) was mentioned during his speech this year to provide some reward ($9,000) for Singaporean male who served National Service in their Post Secondary Education Account or CPF. I was thinking I finished my Uni Education in NUS and current working, currently spending 300 dollars everyone to repay my education loans to CPF. Could I ask PM Lee to let me use the $9000 to offset my education loan? On top of that could I get more than $9,000? I don't mind he prorate for me as I served 4 months more than the younger batch as NS in the past is 2 yrs 6 months (2 months discount for me as they just introduced 2 yrs during the days i served my NS)? Seriously. It really helps many young Singaporean man who just graduate to finish their loan repayment much faster. (approx. 2 yrs faster with interest)

Import of Foreign Talent is inevitable since the population could not replace itself to keep GDP growing and keep wages competitive. Mainly caused by abortions and low fertility rate. The government has continually urging Singaporean to marry young. However there are factors, monetary and non monetary, affecting it.

1) National Service - a default delay of 2.5yrs for older Singaporean males and 2 yrs for younger Singaporean males. Singaporean males also lost their GF because they have no money and time to keep their demanding GFs satisfied. Maybe is time for the government to start some campaigns to brainwash the girls in Singapore that is a glorious thing to serve the nation and not treat NS boys as dirts (i.e. girls in Taiwan think army boys are cool). Maybe, more guys think serving the army is not a bad thing.

2) Education Loan and Expenses- Every Singaporean is in debt after graduation. (unless you family is so rich that you don't have to pay by your own) Hence, plans for marriage delays. Many Couples dread to have children because every parent wish to provide education for their kids and education in Singapore is super duper expensive. Perhaps, using CPF to repay CPF would be a better solution. (You can't use CPF money to pay for you wedding expenses)

3) Meritocracy Society - Every Singaporean have to work damn hard to earn a 'competitive' wage. less time to pak tor. Imagine some people have to work weekends to deliver what they are tasked to do as the time during office hours are not enough to finish large amount of work. Blame it on the more the better. Perhaps, culture of work life balance must be further reinforced. 5 day work week is a good move. Maybe a more radical approach is to make working during weekend illegal for ppl working 5 day work week. =)

Hence, the import of foreign talent comes to the rescue. However, somethings I guess the government must take in factor for this method of population replacement.

1) Foreign Talent don't have to serve NS resulting better head start for them. Many of them are successful at a younger age as the education system allows them to get their degree faster and they don't serve NS back in their country

2) Some Foreign Talent don't have to pay 2o to 30k of education fees. Hence, they don't expect higher wages to pay off their debt. If they earn the same amount as a local, they are even better off than locals.

3) They don't have to pay CPF. As such they have more cash to do investment and start business as they could save more than a Singaporean whom have to put 20% of their wages in CPF and let the government earn money in investment on behalf of them.

Just some random thoughts....

Career Interest

2010-08-28T12:44:00.003+08:00

After working for almost 1 yr (reaching 11th month), I felt that you really need some motivation or passion to drive you in the job you are working at... For the current job, I guess the only fuel that continues to drive me is the opportunity to learn and prepare for my next career, as the current learning curve is still very steep and hard to climb... I am glad that my Director wants me to learn the important skills and attributes at work that he shared with me a month ago... I know I won't be staying at a same job for more than 5 years... I am somehow targeting to do a switch at least before 30 yrs old... I hope I can learn as much as possible and better equip myself for the next job. The key sector I would wish to see myself developing in the long term would be either:

1) Tourism;
2) Transport;
3) Sports;
4) Environment; or
5) Education

I know I am good at operational matters and events (knowing it through many events i organised in school and my vacation jobs) and I am trying to beef myself by improving my skills in thinking ahead, situation awareness and knowing the urgency to carry out things. My communication skills needs to be improved too... I don't wish to see myself stuck at a level of writing minutes and scheduling meetings day in and out... I wish I can be in a position that I can make decisions to make things happen and be recognised... I really hope God could help me and guide me along the way...

Exhausted

2010-08-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl.. sorry for the inactivity here... I'm just tired... pardon me....

Bus Fares

2010-07-11T10:24:00.002+08:00

Seems like after 3 July 2010 fee restructure, my bus fare had increased tremendously relative to the rate increase by PTC or Transit link for the past few yrs (increase by 1 or 2 cents)... I realised 90% of the fares I paid now increased by 10 to 20 cents and the decrease which the authorities claim only 2-4 cents decrease which make up the remainder 10% of my transport fee... now on a week basis... my fare increased by 2 to 3 dollars and could potentially increase to 8 to 12 dollars per month.... Guess the new fee structure only benefits those ppl who do a lot of transfers....

PTC claims that the bus fee structure is to be fair to everyone pay fees... but i felt is a move to increase bus fare and increase revenue... why is dat so?

1) basic fares now is at 71 cents... in the past is 69 cents? isn't it an obvious increase of price by using a shroud to cover by saying now is a fairer way to charge
2) now the price breakdown is much more (look at bus stops the fare breakdown)... if you do economics and do some calculation... you will be able to reap more revenue to capture the different price paid by consumers, which is similar to price discrimination...

Just my personal thoughts... dunno whether others are experiencing increase in transport fees?

A Week of Leave

2010-07-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

Exhausted! Yes I am very tired... I dunno why I am not able to sleep well after sports camp even though I only have average of 2-3hrs of sleep... I was totally zonk out at work and also emo... After a week of excitment and fun.. finally I am back to reality... and indeed reality is harsh... cleared many emails today and I seem not able to focus due to the fatigue... today is also the day I worked in my new office... Is pretty troublesome to get breakfast, lunch and fetch ice cold water as everything seems to be very far... =( I really hope I can sleep well tonight and get used to the new office soon...

Sports Camp 2010 is indeed a fun camp with lots of fun ppl... I would like to congratulate Aayush and Kah Hwee for a successful Sports Camp... I would also like to thank them together with Runi and Boon Hui for giving me a chance to take photos for the camp.... I had fun for the week with the camp and I felt my leave was worth taken... I made many new frens especially with the O comm... you guys rock! =) I also learn a lot while shooting for the camp... hope my skills can improve after sports camp and also lynette's birthday...

Twenty Seven

2010-06-14T19:43:00.003+08:00

Finally the day has come.... every year is always a struggle it will make my yr gd or bad... though this may sound a little demanding and insecure... but every year my wish is too really celebrate my special with ppl who cherish and appreciate me... My family do not have a habit to celebrate birthdays and special occasions... Hence when I was a kid... I was very jealous of other kids that their parents throw a party for them and ask other kids to celebrate his or her birthday... overtime... this jealousy and envy had been part of me every single yr... same goes to festive seasons like christmas... sometimes i tried so hard to make it happen yet it is not genuine... I kind of felt a little down when June is approaching... dreading the same old sad thing is going to happen (same for valentines day, christmas, Chinese New Yr) this year... but somehow i tell myself that is either geniune from people who really appreciate or leave it... no point trying to hard yet causing even more damage to the relationship you have with ppl and ur own soul...

These 2 yrs had been gd as my sports camp o comm in 2009 and my dive shop frens in 2010 celebrated my bday... i really do appreciate the effort to make my day special... last yr i got shaved at the top of vivo city and this yr i got stripped off my pants and fins underwater at Sebukang Bay (Thanks for not stripping my trunks off) plus almost kena smashed into the cake pan while being tasked to lick it.. I can say myself to be fortunate to have ppl celebrating my bday and i do do appreciate it.. however sometimes i do yearn for a group of ppl whom i can from now be together till we grow old kind of frenship...

Anyway i would like to thank Erny, Cindy, Nana, Chandra Dewi, Marg, Perry, Lester, Darren, Jonathan, Lloyd and Jeremy for celebrating my Bday at Dayang... thanks for the effort and also the cake by Darren... I was happy to see Dolphins at the surface at Lang Bay during the second dive (too bad it was spoilt by an ang mo girl who plunge into the water hard to scare them off before it could reach our boat)... was very happy too dat i clear my deep dive specialty too at 40m (thanks Perry!)

I would also like to thank Runi and Felicia for meet me up on Thurs for a bday dinner! you girls rock k! I would also like to thank every who FB and sms me happy bday! you all made my day =)

Anyway the below photos are some long due photo taken during last week company family day at the Zoo.. =)

Goodbye Samsung Omnia, Hello Iphone 3Gs!

2010-05-30T16:37:00.002+08:00

Last Sunday noon... I lost my Samsung Omnia while taking the shuttle from Bishan to City Hall... I don't know why I am so calm when i lost my phone (just a little anxious)... I think through and find all the things I should do to try find back my phone.. so I seek help from the person in charge of the shuttle bus... However, was in vain after a 5 hour wait... but I really wanna thank the transport co-ordinator for YoG Asian Arena Qualification for Track and Field... they really did a great job trying to find my phone... though the phone was kind of lost for Good... but i really appreciate they took all the effort they could.. Kudos... wanna Thank May who was the Bus Fleet leader...

Hence, I am thinking of what phone to get and I decided to get iphone 3gs... paying another 518 for a new phone for a lost 1.5yr old phone which is so scratched and cui... To my surprise, my dad paid for my phone even when i already took out my credit card.. thanks Dad... I really hope i dun lose my phone again... In my 10 yrs of using a mobile phone. this is the first time i lost my phone...

So please let me know your contacts again so I can save into my phone and avoid asking "who is this?" =)

Surprised

2010-05-15T10:04:00.004+08:00

Hahaha I never knew i appeared on News paper (Mypaper Pg4) on 11 May 2010. Is kind of nice ppl smsing you asking is that you in the paper... somehow it translates that ppl still do care... thanks ppl for the sms =)... anyway had some random shooting and here are some of the photos i really love...

Nudibranches

2010-05-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

Some Nudibanches shots I took before my Fuji Finepix died on me.

The Return

2010-05-03T20:28:00.002+08:00

I wonder why I am feeling strange ever since Saturday.... I was back to a church on Saturday and things seems to be weird... weird in the sense that how I felt last yr is coming back to haunt me again... It has been almost a yr ever since I left church.... It was a tough decision to leave church.... One reason I left was to stop all the pain I am suffering... I no longer want to be a "gd" person somehow as it does not really pay ... is like some kind of expectation kind of thingy.... I also dun wanna face the fact that i am alienated and many more triggered the decision....

Things indeed somehow cool down and I start to feel better as in I feel liberated... no expectations... I know is kind of silly doing this but I felt is the only way i can escape from this... I rather stay in the cold side of the world by myself than staying in a loving environment where i am not the recipient...

Now I seem to feel lost again and I dun like this feeling....

Tioman

2010-04-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

Was out diving at Tioman over the earth day weekend... Was doing my deep diver specialty course and currently left one more dive to certification.... This trip was a big group... great training for Adam as a DMT for such a large group.... A lot of people say Tioman dive sites are boring and dead... however this is not true....I had a total of 5 dives over the weekend at Soyak Island, Pirate Reef, Renggis Island, Marine Park and Tomok. Guess the only boring dive was marine park as the vis was extremely poor due to many OWD students... I managed to see many marine creatures that the island could promise... during the 2 days of diving... managed to see nice Nudibranches, Black Tip Reef Sharks, Turtles, White Banded Sea Snake, Cuttlefish, Glass Shrimps, Great Barracudas, school of Barracudas and more.... Marine life beyond the sandy patch from the reef seemed to be untouched and different.... there are many soft corals at the sandy patch at great depth away from the reef... Guess I might go back to do more exploratory dives...

On the other hand... manage to make more new frens and get to know some frens better... ppl like Dave, Xin Hua, Nana, Erny, Raymond, Yumi, Chandra, Adam, Junaida. Look forward to dive with u all again! Perhaps I shall go Dayang over the Vesak Day long weekend.

Realistic

2010-04-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

Today was at the train heading home after borrwing an advanced open water manual from my fren for my Deep Dive Specialty this weekend at Tioman... I managed to see an article from a local chinese newspaper reporting about how income affect a rating of a woman towards a man.... For example... there is Man A, B and C. Based on looks and initial interactions with the man. The women gave their ratings for the man... not knowing the man individual income yet... Man A scored a 8, Man B scored a 6 and Man C scored a 3.5 .... after releasing the income of each man... the ratings are ... Man A with income 2400 dollars a month scored a 6.... Man B with income 5600 scored a 8 and Man C with income of 8200 scored a 8.... conclusion is that nowadays A significant number Singaporean woman are very realistic... once knowing the income the rating changes.... which gives me an idea they like $$$ not the man.... For me I totally dun like girls after my money... I felt that is important to have $$$ but is not everything...

Knowing all these... i realised there is a disequilibirum in woman and man... lets look at this in a rationale view... assuming 2 woman... 1 high upkeep 1 lowupkeep... both are pretty and both character same (homgenous good)... rich man has a choice... a rationale man will choose the one lowupkeep... easier for him to make his wife happy .... happy wife happy husband.... Hence rich man prefer ladies with low upkeep who dun look high up to $$$ ... therefore... there is a mismatch....

Perhaps i am single until now cos i have not met D one.... yeapz... is kind of hard to find girls who are not $$ driven and orientated.... is a rare gem to find girls who are not realistic and looks things is a more "humanistic" way.... perhaps what i share ppl may not agree... but this is just my opinion.... =)

ADEX

2010-04-11T19:03:00.004+08:00

After a year wait, ADEX 2010 is finally here. I personally felt that it is so much better than last year. Kuddos to Asian Diver taking ADEX back and make it for divers and divers wannabe... After looking at all the award winning photos... I kind of miss taking photos underwater... currently my camera and housing is spoilt and I gotta stop taking it indefinately.... For the past 2 years of taking photos... I manage to dig out the photos i taken i chose my favourite 5 =) Hence, do help me chose which photo is the best by tagging it on my tagboard or commenting it. Thanks.

1) Coral Whip Shrimp

2) Blue Ring Octopus

3) Squid

4) Hermit Crab

5) Ornate Ghost Pipefish

Confirmation

2010-04-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

Perhentian Trip had been a gd one... though vis is bad... but manage to get to know a few more divers during the trip... though i had not been dive lead for almost 1.5yrs... but manage to pick everything up by the 2nd day of diving.... though 1st day was rather unorganised... with the help of Jia Xing and Hans.... I manage to pick everything up again... Hans from Perhentian had been a gd dive lead and also an mentor to me regarding dive leading... really appreciated it... I dun mind going perhentian but i might take the train or budget flight option cos travelling by bus is extremely tiring...

Work had been busy for the past 2 weeks... begin to tah bao work home to do in order to finish in time... though been thru a lot of reprimanding... but i felt as long as i am moving forward... its worth... treating it part of the process to learn for a higher position in future....

Finally managed to get my confirmation... is like finally... would like to thanks the team for the support for the 6 months and my direct report for all the patience and guidance... =)

NUS Matric Card

2010-03-25T00:59:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh... This is hilarious... check this out!!

Canon 550D

2010-03-21T21:45:00.003+08:00

Finally I bought my DSLR.... After a long wait... =)

Should I buy or not buy?

2010-03-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

We will know the answer this Saturday =) Gonna burn a big hole in my bank account if i buy...

Public Commuting Woes

2010-03-02T01:30:00.002+08:00

Yes. As a public transport user, there are certain unpleasant incidents or phenomena I am experiencing recently....

1) People who frantically push their way through up the bus or train, which you find boarding the bus or train seems to be automated as the crowd pushes you up the bus or train.

2) People who doesn't realise that there is an invention called the earphones. They have to broadcast their favourite hits and video and worst of all nobody had the same preference with them.

3) People who fell asleep and lean on you as their pillow. To make things worse, they are drooling. Ewww.

4) You gotta wait for 20 mins for your bus which took 5 mins to reach your house.

5) People who like to open their leg so wide that they frantically occupy your leg room space causing you to squeeze your B*lls all the time.

6) People who try to board the bus that is so full that their presence at the entrance caused the whole bus to wait for them as the door could not be closed.

7) Being a minority commuting in public transport.

Fortunately, the time to commute between my home and workplace is short. Hence, its not so bad. But still, I hate morning and evening rush traffic =(

Ignore

2010-02-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

Just had a random thought that Ignore seems to be an easy way out of some situation/problems... but on the other hand... Ignore can be very painful to another party.... speaking from a perspective of a victim which I had been one many times...

The imperfection of people seems to bring many complications in relationships between one another... imperfection seems to be an adverse attribute in life.... however I think imperfection can be a "tool" or "catalyst" to mature one being by teaching us how to manage expectations and balance things in life.... guess is true that life is a lesson itself.... some people learn about life in a harsh way... some would learn in a less harsh condition....

Was talking to someone today I think most of us do live in a well conditioned society... or in other words... a sheltered environment.... we think we can conquer the world but when we step out... oh uh... things dun seem to be what we thought.... I guess I observed some of the people whom i observed in the younger generation... some of them think they know everything but deep within themselves they seem not... they would brag they know this and that plus they had been through this and that... but when something happens they press the panic button and go running helter skelter.... guess the analogy of "lap sa jiak, lap sa dua" in hokkien seems to be true for life too... kids who are orphans or need to support the family at a young age seem to be more matured than their peers....

Opps i guess been thinking too much... hope i make some sense in the above thoughts.... =)

Bali Trip

2010-02-25T23:10:00.006+08:00

Nice trip to Bali with nice and accomodating friends like John, Shi Hui, Waiyin, Julynn, Geoff, Geoff's Wife, Audrey, Marvin. Had fun and stayed in a wonderful villa. Kind of regret I do not have a DSLR... if not i will be going around shooting away... anyway here are the photos taken by my Phone's Camera. Enjoy!

Inside the Private Villa.....

Oh the pool in the picture is a swimming pool! we had our swimsuit party with food and drinks and also our fun photo shoot with some of the guys pro cameras =)

My Room, which was converted from a TV room....
Open Concept Toilets....

View from our common area for the 9 of us....

Kitchen....

Sofa Area.... Dining Area....

Offerings found along the streets which was offered to the "bad spirits" as they will be jealous if the ppl only offer it to the "good spirits"

Bali's Signature Rice Terrace....

Heaven's Joke

2010-02-13T00:11:00.004+08:00

I think Heaven loves to play a joke in my life seriously.... Imagine when everyone are in the mood of Valentines day today... Guess what? I met 2 person I like before which didn't materialise on the same day today.... yeah ... FML....

Any Happy CNY to everyone.... will be out of action for a while.... so not gonna blog often or even at all... been busy and such... will start once the feeling is back...

How to Catch Food Thief in Hall

2010-02-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the stagnant blog as I was busy during work and stuff.... Haha anyway... how to catch thief in the hall you stay whom always steal ur food? One good way is to buy food that the thief steals often from the basket of stuff u got in Hall... then u add some laxative to it. After the food is gone... u pay attention who in the hall had diaherrea... the one who had it is the culprit and he or she deserve to stay in the toilet to clear his or her bowels LOL!

24:50

2010-01-13T01:14:00.002+08:00

Why 24:50? 24mins and 50 seconds is the time i took to run 5km and i was planning to run 3km and walk 2km initially... its my new personal record up till now with 53mins for 10km, 14mins 30seconds for 3km and 10mins 30 seconds for 2.4km ....

Need to run to destress and keep my emotions in check... running is good =)

Work Load

2010-01-09T21:56:00.003+08:00

2 weeks has passed since the year 2010.... whatever that is being hope for and looking towards a better year seem to be very deem and just an illusion.... things has not been going the way i wished.... work load at work has been increasing rather steeply and more to come soon... currently i am handling quite a no. of stuff simulatanously... like i am juggling a lot of ball right now and sometimes i could not get things done due to people who do not meet thier deadline... hence i got to chase them and this takes time and a lot of things can't get going... the next 2 weeks will be like this and i really hope i can handle things well and settle whatever needs to be settled on time and be able to be well informed to handle all queries... last night find it hard to sleep because i had been thinking how to solve the pending issues at work... Maybe i stress myself too much cos i really want to get my employment confirmed and is my convinction to be an asset to the department.. God please help me =( ...

Long Xmas Weekend

2009-12-27T13:29:00.002+08:00

Is been a while i experienced such a long weekend for a total of 3.5 days.... so far so gd... as for Xmas eve, fortunately I had a fren asked me out for dinner and movie last minute which make my Xmas eve not a wasted one... approaching the last week of 2009... i really hope 2009 will come to an end quickly and 2010 to be a gd year... much better one... been through many years of emotional recession... i really hope 2010 will be a yr i pick up real fast... so far i am more or less stable... learnt a lot through the journey and seen a lot of things... perhaps these are tough lessons about life... guess i should start to think about what i wanna do and set resolutions for the year 2010... Like to thanks those people who had been there for me... and no thanks to those who do the talk only and give empty promises to make themselves look good... 2010 shall be a happy year for me =)

All I Want For Xmas is "You"

2009-12-24T13:57:00.002+08:00

If i have a wish that will come true... i would wish for a family or a group of people whom i can trust and appreciate for who i am for long term, which i can celebrate with for every festive and special occassions such as birthdays or even occasional gatherings. =)

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-23T15:28:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone! Last Sunday, i was kind of yearning to go for the candlelight service.... Fortunately, my gd fren is willing to go with me.... As i stepped into church... I felt like I am back home kind of feeling... being away for quite a while.... The candlelight during the service and the carol Oh Holy Night has always captivates me.... Since its Christmas, presents and MJ sessions are always welcomed!

As the year is approaching to an end... guess its time to sit down and think about what i want in 2010.. like material desires, trips and many more... Anyway work is going to get busy after New year... hope i am able to cope... =)

Safe For Now

2009-12-13T16:32:00.003+08:00

Finally went to the doctor... she said I alright... the ratio between good and bad cholesterol is at normal level... means i got high bad cholesterol and good cholesterol at the same time making the total cholesterol very high... but going to do a test soon to verify... maybe my bad cholesterol level might drop due to my exercise regime...

Anyway finally met up with my Uni friends who are same batch with me... been a good gathering and never knew Monopoly Cards are so fun... Thanks Sharon for helping me sms and coordinate the gathering and Selina for bringing the card game... and not to forgetting to thank everyone who came to make it possible...

Currently now thinking where to dive next year.... was looking at Lankayan Island, Sipadan Island, Maldives, Similans, Layang Layang, Bali or the Philippines... so far can only afford 2 to 3 trips... so gotta choose carefully as i do not have much leave if i help out in Sports Camp 2010 next yr... Anyway please date me for any mahjong game... hahah got the craving to play mahjong... :P

Dying

2009-12-08T19:53:00.003+08:00

Haha i have very high cholesterol according to my health report.... 6.21 mmol/L... which is more than 6.20mmol/L under very high range... high risk in getting coronary heart diseases LOL.... very ironic... my cholesterol only rises after i start working out... :P Maybe its time to make a will LOL!

Early Payday

2009-12-04T14:35:00.002+08:00

Yeah!!! payday brought forward by 7 days for December! $$$!!! wonder what should i buy for the month for Dec... DSLR? not enough yet.... New Crumpler Bag? Maybe..... or perhaps i should start my CNY shopping now.. so that i can slowly slowly buy the clothes i like... =) maybe i should go for some feast to reward myself for exercising regularly for the past 2 months.... =P

Holiday

2009-11-27T03:31:00.007+08:00

The first long weekend is finally here eversince i started work... but was doing some work in office that turned my morale off.... think i should suggest the better alternative i had suggested earlier to really make things work better... putting that aside... pretty glad i am going for a non diving holiday right after Chinese New Year... going to Bali for a RnR trip with OD crew which i will join them after thier diving at North Bali... will join them at the Villa we gonna stay and this is how the villa looks like which going to accommodate 9 of us...

More pictures and information about this villa are in http://purigoagongbali.com/

Lastly, would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Haji to the Muslim frens =)

P.S: Woke up middle of the night as i dozed off at 8pm... was thinking that someone said that she was reading my blog... so i went to my blog to have a look and realised i seldom update my blog and my english was quite horrible... hahaha but who cares... :P

Last Dive of the Season

2009-11-16T22:00:00.002+08:00

Finally hit my 200 dives mark... embarking to a 250 dive target hopefully by mid of 2011 or even by 2010 if i start to dive lead next yr.... went up with the crew for crew trip and enjoyed myself... i always love to go diving with a group... but somehow quite difficult for me to find someone... just like travelling... while going up Mersing... i had a chance to drive into JB and it was quite an interestinf experience.... day 1 was quite bad on the island... bad vis, strong current, choppy waters and rained the whole afternoon... so after morning 2 dives i ended my day after lunch.... day 2 was gd... vis got better, surface is calmer... but the current still strong... manage to see what a sea angel looks like right in front of my eyes at Rayner's rock while doing 5m safety stop with surface drift.... but sad thing of the trip is to see a turtle died not long ago as it was trapped in a man's jeans stuck to a coral underwater as it could not go to the surface to breath... it died with its eyes open and the whole body was stiff.... putting that aside.... overall was rather relax.. i haven't had a relaxing dayang trip for a long time... and one thing surprising was my boss had changed for a better... was kind of surprised... but was glad for him....

Work so far has been good... just hope that i will get my confirmation during April... and hopefully can get an increment as next yr my uni education loan repayment will kick in which cost me a bomb.... now gotta save up quite a lot for DSLR, Dive trip and non diving trip next yr since my fren willing to go with me during her leave.... Money money money.. always not enough... :(

Work Life

2009-11-08T22:24:00.002+08:00

Guess i have not update this blog for a while eversince i put up Love by Albert Einstein... so far work is alright... just dat know starting to have more and more things coming in and need to think differently which i gotta start thinking deeper and look at things beyong what it is.... not easy skill but i guess i will try to master it... i hope after 6 months i can get confirmation for the employment and continue to strive....

finally i can dive once again and hit 200 dives very soon! today manage to do soemthing i never did before... running a full Biatholon at home... sawm 1km and ran 10km.... kind of felt satisfied... think i need to start thinking about what to do with life and though i am working but i still running out of cash.... now i starting to feel relieve that i do not have a gf...

so far there is a lot of things in my mind now... i am just unable to put it in words.... life is kind of shingz but well... still able to survive....

Love and Life by Albert Einstein

2009-10-23T00:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man/woman of deeds and not for the man/woman of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man/woman you love but with the man/woman who loves you more.

The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving; it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.

Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love, that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive, no past so bitter that love cannot accept, and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

Surprised

2009-10-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

Someone told me she like me before 5 yrs ago.. i was in shock actually =) but i am honoured to hear such a truth... but i was kind of regret cos i was a little interested in her but i got someone in my mind during that period.... but again think of it.... yupz is the timing problem... which is not in my favor and also her favor.... well... its 5 yrs ago... and shes getting married soon which i find it puzzled that she told me now...

Well work has been good... picking up things as day goes by... looking at the CPF education loans i have right in front of me.... is quite a huge sum of money and yah... for the next 10 yrs gotta be thrifty... like budget meals during weekdays and less leisure goods... which now i find it a blessing to be single... cos it will really strain me financially if i have a gf.... =)

Work Life

2009-10-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

Finally i stepped into the working world after 18 yrs of education... finally time to earn some cash and support myself... with such potential of income... many desires started to develop... ideas of going holiday, diving trips, new clothes, DSLR, good food and more.... After many months of slacking... getting into working mood seems to be a little challenging.... but i guess will be fine soon... my most feared minutes writing will soon come again... cos writing minutes during army is quite a big challenge ask i am the only ikan bilis in the whole conference room.... plus the fact i got registering problems... but with all these challenges i really hope i can do it well in my new job.... ppl around have been nice and getting along well... so far quite satisfied.... =)

Humidity

2009-10-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

The Weather is insane these days.... Today had a chance to try out DSLR.... seems to be fun and good.... anyway Luke 6:31 Does not happen in my life...

Employed

2009-09-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Finally after 2 months of searching after the end of Sports Camp Part 2... i finally found a job.... going to start work on 5th of October.... which means i got another 7 more days to enjoy freedom doing my own things in the weekdays.... which now i have been thinking how should i spent my weekdays well....

Well not kind of feeling neither here nor there... is like all my frens are busy with thier mid terms and assignments... and i am not working now.... this transition period seems to pull me down a lot.... which kind of feel =( instead of doing nothing... i try to start exercising and my fitness seems to imrpove... from the first time running 3km in 19mins to now 13:56mins and 2.4km in 11:05mins (35secs away from personal best in secondary 4 which i got gold)... and lost about 2kg in just 1 week.... i also tried swimming for 1km and ran 3km... if not 5km run which i can run in about 25mins....

Anyway i hope i can adapt well in my new job and do well in it.... =) will try to update soon =)

Intangible

2009-09-21T03:16:00.002+08:00

Today i stumbled upon somebody in my facebook profile who is my secondary school friend... i just felt kind of of strange is like this fren of mine many yrs ago i talked to her and she was just right in front of me.... now u msg her, call her or email her... shes not gonna reply.... she passed away last yr in a Car accident... shes not the only one whom i felt this way.... another fren of mine whom i stay in the same room in taiwan for almost 10 days for a church event.... he passed away with Cancer for quite some time... i think for about a yr or 2.... i felt very strange cos like wad i mentioned above... is someone i really talk to face to face... someone i relate too... but now hes gone... he is not gonna appear right in front me and talk and encourage me.... yup... such feeling is beyond wad i can use words to decribe... well maybe this is part of life....

SehBirdnism

2009-09-06T22:07:00.004+08:00

The Phrase "Seh Bird", Originated by Mr Ow YP, has influenced the Sports Club Community.... Sehbirdnism is spreading fast... even Zhong Hao who is dem the least possible to say seh bird has utter the phrase on 3rd september at Swensens Holland V .... hahahah will SehBirdnism evangelise NUS and Singapore? Stay Tuned

P.S: Are you Seh enough?
P.S.S: Haha this is totally random!

Picture Source: Mr Ow YP

Brave Volunteers

2009-09-01T12:09:00.000+08:00

I am very glad and touch i have brave volunteers in RunNUS for timekeeping/finishing line. They stood in the rain waiting for the remaining runners to come back despite of the heavy downpour and winds. Some ppl would have fled and seek for shelter but they did not. They continue to do what they suppose to do until no runners are coming to the finish line. I would like to thank them and give my respect to them =)They are Yin Ren from Livesaving, Keng Yong from Wushu, Geraldine Wong, Tamsyn Tong, Tammy Low, Emily Teo and Ching Lee from Sports Camp. I felt bad when u all are cold and drenched. Thanks so much ppl!

The Cove

2009-08-27T16:18:00.005+08:00

Secret of illegal dolphin fishing industry exposed... Trailer at.... http://www.thecovemovie.com/

2am And The Rain Is Falling

2009-08-25T01:42:00.005+08:00

Yupz currently is near to 2am... heavy downpour outside... currently sitting in the Sports Club Exco room typing this blog at 1.45am exactly.... while yau png and Boon Hui was bathing... i was left alone in the room... i pondered a lot of stuff.... dats the danger if u leave me alone... i will start to ponder things that are very negative.... guess i am in a transition area where i refused to move out from the old season... searching for job is not easy at this current downturn where there is a lag in the labor market even if the economy shows signs of recovery....

Sitting in the room... I've been thinking about my past 3 years in university... is been ups and downs in my life... i personally went thru the toughest period of my life emotionally ever since i left poly... now i have graduated... feel a bit lost... maybe when i found a job i might feel better being occupied.... currently i put myself in a situation not to expect much things in order to protect myself not to fall down hard from expectations not met... if i am very pessimistic ... pls pardon me cos i just wanna protect myself emotionally... after been thru so much... now i also adopt a hint me i only move mindset.... maybe thru all these i might make myself more comfortable emotionally.... now wad i really wanna do is to get a job and move on.... hoping one gd Samaritan will pick me up one day....

I guess wad i need is wad many ppl need deep down honest in their hearts... acceptance, appreciation and love.... i tried to find in a church but apparently i did not really find it... to be honest i have not been to church for almost 2 months... is a mixed feeling... i feel happy yet i feel sad... happy i cut myself away from bad experiences and stay away from people that potential can trigger something but the sad part is dat i feel so far from God Himself.... i have dilemma to go to church and not to go... but many of the time i chose not to go cos i feel kinda weird in church if i were to go....

Indeed i feel very "naked" when i am alone... sometimes i think i really need professional help... i am going insane.... i really hate the feeling i felt inside me.... especially at night and times i am alone... this is very scary... till i feel come bring me Home oh God.... i dunno when i can come out of this... many ppl told me to love myself and esteem myself higher than others see in me... but i find it pretty hard.... I hate being alone... cos i think thoughts that i make my heart sink... thoughts that poison my heart... thinking abt the FML situations i had and more.... my spins very fast.... so yeah.... it is murdering my soul....

I guess this is not the 1st time i express my inner thoughts.... some ppl critize me some ppl concern about me.... this is my blog i have the right to express how i feel.... guess this is the only revenue to vent my emotions and fustration out.... ppl can choose to read or not... rather i tell them and irritate them.... so if u think this is too emo for u... dun read then... and to those ppl who post ugly things on my tag board and dun dare to admit who you are... i also feel sad for u dat u have the guts to comment but no guts to admit who u are....

Life Of A Unemployed Graduate

2009-08-19T22:05:00.002+08:00

Sports Clubroom seems to be a place i hang out the most compared to other places.... somehow i have a sense of place with NUS and Sports Club after doing and helping with so many events like Sports Camp 2008, Sports Camp 2009, Run NUS 2009, Netballuxion 2009... being hanging out with sports club ppl until i felt a strong urge that i should run for Sports Club 30th Management Committee as Vice President or Hon. Gen. Treasurer if i am still studying in NUS as an undergraduate. I even have ideas like being a Sports Officer in SRC to be part of NUS Sports Community. Well all these can only be fantasy as for now cos i had already graduated from NUS and SRC has no openings. I am also happy i know some great frens in sports club like Zhong Hao, Yau Png, Boon Hui, Jocelyn, Fan Yun, Ming Jiao, Jieyi, Shuyi, Keng Yong, Weilun, Xinying and many many more... too many to name... yupz i had gd time hang out in clubroom so far now...

Applications after applications are being sent in... going for several interviews... currently no job really spur an strong interest in me to take up. All the jobs i prefer did not get back to me like from LTA and STB... tml going for another interview being a management support executive 2.4k job... i hope it will be a gd job...

Finally i got an interesting idea... i wonder if it is possible NUS OED or OSA get rid of great wall resturant and bring Popeyes Chicken or KFC.... right below sports club room. so i can have gd food and visit sports club ppl.... gd idea right? Especially Popeye Chicken should be brought in NUS cos in the east and central there are outlets... but not the west... hmmm NUS student should voice this out and bring them in!

Job Search

2009-08-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Job search so far has been tough in such period... all the companies whom express interest recruiting me are financial planning and wealth managament... which somehow i am not interested in... today i received a call from a recruitment agency whom arranged an interview with me being a business development manangement trainee... my very first interview... i should give a shot to it... if success gd... if not is my chance to get exposed to a formal interview with an employer... so far been sending out resumes after resumes... job application is a tedious job and very demoralising if companies dun get back to u after sending 10s and 20 application which u need to fill them up online one by one over and over again...

Recently i am very lost especially when NUS school term starts... now currently i am involved in Run NUS and it seems dat i can't bear to leave school.... NUS is a place i really experience a lot of changes in my life.... really been thru a lot academically and also emotionally.... i really really hope once i step in work life i can find a new meaning of life once again... or even be back to the positive me... there is a lot of things on my mind... but i guess i am not going to share here cos there are many F**kers out there.... so well if u really wanna know u gotta dig it out from me personally...

Toh Yi Drive

2009-08-02T15:25:00.004+08:00

Toh Yi Drive is the place i grew up from a children to a teenager for a period of 10 yrs since end of 1989 to mid of 1999... It is the place i spend my happiest decade in a nice and peaceful nayborhood environment.... everytime i goes back to Toh Yi Drive... my heart is filled with excitement and nostalgic feeling that i am back to place i grew up... many fond memories keep reminiscing in my mind.... there is a few accounts that i purposfully made a trip there and even went up to the unit i lived.... moving out from there really pinches my heart... i still remember the news broke out that we have to move in a few months time really saddens me.... On the day i moved out i feel down and can't bear to... i even ask my parents to let me stay in the empty house for 1 more day to experience it the very last day staying there.... Many fond memories of frens i made there and we are really a sticky bunch which we meet almost everyday after school and during vacations.... the playground is the place we had fun, roleplay and discuss about stuff as a kid.... during my teenage years we continue the tradition (minus the playground playing and roleplaying but we hang out in arcades and food places for supper and even went to town together)... with the same purpose... spending time with one another.... i can still remember the longest frenship i had was with Cher Fong.... we knew each other during tuition when i was primary 3 at a tuition teacher's house.... we still hang out even though i moved out until i was in poly that we lost contact... the other fren i had i hang out mostly when i was in primary school was my naybor Darryl which we play soccer under void decks... i sometimes visted his hse to play... as time pass i knew a fren through cher fong called Raymond Junius that we hang out often to play arcade, eat and even play at his house... staying overnight chiong all those Playstation games and Sega Saturn.... so many fond memories.... i can never forget... its really my happiest 10 years of my life.... i feel accepted though i am bullied sometimes which i took those bullies as acceptance.... i spend most time with ppl and frens.... i even accepted Christ in a house when i was primary 5 during thier so called cellgroup outreach at some person house having egg tarts... yes i can remember i was holding an egg tart saying my sinner's prayer...

After Leaving Toh Yi Drive... i can never find back the company i used to had there... the nearest was during Poly went i met Raymond Ling which he brought me to City Harvest Church... but nothing can be compared to the days back at Toh Yi Drive... I really hope i can meet someone or some people that can bring me out of this and move into a new era where i can remember fondly the times we had and not lost each other until we go heaven.... yes i am thirsty for geniune frenship that we spend lots of time together like a family... which i still searching for willing souls that could make dat dream come to pass... some suggest i should get a girlfren... but is also another source of dissapointment to me due to rejections... yupz... haha i am fine... i can only hope and see wad i can do to make dat dream come to pass...

Thank You!

2009-08-01T21:37:00.002+08:00

I never expect this card to be given to me during Hua Cheng's Sports Camp PD Treat... well i was very surprised and touched.... thought i hint runi dat i never receive a photo collage b4 in my 26 yrs of life... but such card alrdy made me feel appreciated and loved... thanks ppl... I wanna take this opportunity to thank my sports camp O comm.... this will be quite long and draggy but such things cannot be missed out or omit out.... First thing First... i wanna Thank....

1) My HR Crew Aayush and Jane... First I wanna thank Aayush for helping me with Councillor and Freshman Recruitment... you da man!!! thought there is hiccups along the way but i truely appreciate what you have done and frenship i had with you! not forgeting the work of being Emcee, Forfiet IC and our official Lorry Driver... you contribute a lot to Sports Camp Kudoos to you! Good job! Next i wanna thank Jane for her help with the administrative works and also some help with Councillor and more help in freshman recruitment.... also wanna thank you for being Aunty Agony for me and also the frenship i had with you... i really appreciate what you did and your contributions to Sports camp outside your jobscope.... My no.1 favourite PA and being there for me when i need help and when i am down =)

2) My Secretary Huimin... Thanks for helping Sports Camp by Dessminating Info to the O Comm... rally the O Comm. and doing the scoring! You are such a nice girl.... MIN MIN! lol...

3) Publicity which is Wen Hao and Felly... Wen Hao thanks for doing all the Singlets, posters and Banner... together with open house stuff... and not forgeting the NUSSU Mailrun! depsite of your busy schedules you still contibute to Sports Camp i really appreciate it and also the frenship we had esp the days we go back our respective home together... thanks fren.... Next Felly... wah... this girl is such a nice girl... not only wanna thank you for your work and effort as a publicity girl... i also wanna thank you for being there for me anytime i need help and company... you are truely a nice sweet girl i know in SC09.... i got so many things to thank you till words alone aren't enough... All the best going to France and take care k?

4) Marketing which is Zhen Biao, Oliver, Yuxi and Justin... wanna thank you all for the hardwork i put into Sports Camp and getting good deals for Sports Camp... wanna appreciate wad u have done especially the irritating follow up with the companies and sponsers... I wanna thank Zhen Biao for the frenship i had with him and always being a nice guy.... take care while you are overseas.... I wanna Thank Oliver for helping out in Sports Camp especially at Frolicks for 5 hours ALONE!.... Yuxi for the nice chats and company home with you... and Justin for the frenship! =)

5) Logisitics which is Terence, Michelle, Sean adn Rudy... i wanna thank you all for being the silent warrior in Sports Camp... your contrubitions are very important to Sports Camp to make Sports Camp a success... thought i dunno you all well... but i do notice you effort and hardwork... nice knowing you alll! Special note to michelle: thanks for helping with the food... which we directors don;t have to worry about it at all feeding the hungry campers... thanks for coming back! Wed JB ah!

6) Programmes which is a lot of people... i shall go through one by one... *Breath on deep breathe* here it goes....

Tashrif! Irritating Emcee for Sports Camp... hahah thanks for planning the beach games and pool games... indeed the freshies had fun... wanna thank you for the help in driving the lorry and the frenships i had with you... telling gd things about me to others while others give me bad comments.... thanks tashrif! 1 Minah for you! :P kekeke...

Next Eunice... thanks for the frenship and the care and concern u showered upoon me.... i will remember what you have done not only during sports camp but also in my personal life.... thanks so much and i appreciate it.... pls pls get new swim suit ok? :P

Next Teddy... wah Sports Camp Gay Boy... but it was fun working with you and wanna thank you for ur effort and contributions during pageant and SP.... you truely bring the fun and whacky element into Sports Camp by being the Forfiet ICs....

Next Geraldine... hahaha wanna thank you for the willingness to help and the efforts you put in during SP and Pageant.. thanks for the frenship i had with you and your willingness to do things that made my life much easier... which i think you are a great fren who is willing to be there and help when times of need... thanks Geraldine, stay pretty and congrates for meeting your yandaos during SG Vs Liverpool haha...

Next wanna thank Shao mei for conducting the indoor and outdoor station games which outdoor station games did not materialise due to bad weather.... i can see you are a silent worker which made the games to be fun and interesting for Sports camp.... really wanna thank you for your effort

And also Valerie thanks for the contirbuting in the station games and the company for dinner with you...

Next Chew Swee... our Sports Camp most Garung and Enthu O commer.... if got such award i sure give you! hahaha thanks for the help in the camp in Nite cycling .... which everyone come back in one pieces in bustling traffic in town... not easy job... thanks for bringing the fun and enthu factor into sports camp being our official Emcee and Fortfiet IC... Think Sports Camp will miss out a lot without you! Therefore I do appreciate everything that you have done... all the best! 1st Class Hons all the way for ur CS! =)

Next Jasalin! wah our Loanshark in times of need man... hahah! wanna thank you for ur effort in Night cycling with Cs... well done job.... Thanks for the frenship i had with you and also i really enjoy working with you... an efficient worker! hahaha hope to see you soon man... you always MIA now sia... my house gathering must come ok? keke! oh oh! i help you submit you claim liao =)

Next Lubin aka LuLu boy hahahaha thanks for the contributions in Amazing Race and the sub club showcases... gd job! thought i never talk to you much... but u had been a gd fren =) great working and knowing you!

Next Carmen our table tennis Champion! hahahah i waiting to have a match to get trashed by you hahah! thanks for ur contribution in Sports Camp! do apprieciate the work and aliasing with the sub club ppl even though u are busy! =)

Next Tamsyn! my fellow partner being a carnivore rawr!! haha thanks for contributing to Sports Camp and your frenship... like company me for lunch in school when i got no company... hahaha i do remember the good times we had in school and in camp! thanks so much for the gd job done for amazing race! tennis soon and BBQ Chix! =)

Sheng Hui! Quack Quack! wah one of our most chio O Commer hahaha! nice knowing you in Sports Camp and also in SAA hahaha! thanks for the hardwork you contribute to sports camp and the planning for Amazing race and the showcases also... indeed i see you put in a lot of effort seeing u often in clubroom making sure amazing race runs well in the planning stages... hahaha i love you whack expressions and your reactions... hahaha it really amuse and make me happy when u react to certain things when my first impression of you of being quiet and very extremely demure... hahah! oops =X

Forgetten about some ppl... not yet... i wanna thank Boon Hui for his rentless effort in helping Sports Camp book venue.... eat all the shellings from SRC and OSA... get air con for the freshies.... accomodations.... wah too many to name... thanks for the hardwork u done in sports camp! i do appreciate your efforts and nice having HTHT with you in clubroom about certain camp issues... haha jia you for school... u quickly grad la.. u also damn old hahah!

Runi! oh gosh.... the little but dangerous one... i very scared when u get angry u know... but nice working with u and understanding me depsite of me being very attitude and lazy at certain point of time... words are definately not enough to express my gratidue to you! indeed you contribute rantlessly to sports camp and helping me with certain stuff... i do do do appreciate ya and thank you for the partnership and alliance with you! =) and not forgeting the small things you done for me as a fren outside of sports camp.... i am really touched by what you done and yupz being my aunty agony during sports camp planning when i almost cannot take it as my capacity quite low one and my inability to multi task.... i know u concerned about my future and keep asking me get a wife... so THANK YOU so much Fathi! :P

Hua Cheng... Thanks for leading sports Camp to a success though what u said during the thank you speech is true being pushy... but i think still managable... cos i all for the sake of sports camp... bringing the best out to the freshman and councillors... i do appreciate of what you have done and i know you have sacrifice a lot for sports camp... though both our working styles very different... but i am glad to work with you..... again words are not enough to expression my gratitude to you of bringing sports camp another level up.... do take care in France and all the best! (We made fun of you cos we love you as o comm hahah!)

Zhong Hao... ahhh! this guy cannot forget one.. cos he is the money man for sports camp! thanks for helping us with the claims and all financial matters... wanna thank your efficiency and help rendered in the camp... thanks for the treat at crystal jade too! =)

In all i wanna thank all the freshman and councillor for making sports camp a success even though H1n1 comes in and disrupt the fun... but i truely hope everyone had fun, enjoyed themselves and most importantly forge meaningful frenships! though i dun have the chance to thank everyone thru the mic... but i wanna take this chance to thank you all!

YOYO SPORTS CAMP!!!!! YOYO WASSUP!!! SC ROX!!!!

Song No. 400

2009-07-25T10:46:00.005+08:00

Sometimes songs really expresses how u felt deep inside your heart... =)

Anyway on the lighter tone... i changed my desktop background... better than the bristol tool thingy by shu han... :p something i took during manado trip which i think is quite nice... though i dun have strobes to bring out the reef colour...

Manado Trip 2009 Photos:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=90458&id=502259323&l=88d6db14a8

and

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=89931&id=502259323&l=4394dffb08

Post Manado 2009 Feelings

2009-07-19T07:56:00.003+08:00

Manado trip this year was good trip... had a company from a fren i know during dive camp and she is a wonderful company... many ppl on the island though we are gf bf or even husband and wife (She complain abt this as this is too old for her).... but we are just pure diving frens nothing more than that... hahaha dats y we can share a lot of things from a neutral point of view.... So wanna take this chance to thank YY for the company for the trip! =)

Diving at Bunaken was fantastic... wall diving is awesome to the max.... dropoff up till 2000+m the reefs are beautiful and its occupied by many many marine life like schools and schools of fish... visibility is rather good... and had a gd time with the ppl on the island and the locals as we visited Bunaken Village after my dive at Bunaken... Thanks Ken for the good host and guiding... Only down side is there is not enough meat dishes during the trip :(

After Bunaken we moved Lembeh Straits for Muck Diving.... totally difference dimension of diving from bunaken as visbility is only maximum 8m, whereas in Bunaken you have 20 to 30m visibility... Diving there is pretty awesome too as there are many weird critters on the black volcanic sand... i really enjoyed the stay at lembeh as it is cosy and a swizz couple really make both of our time at lembeh a enjoyable one especially the last night.... the Scenery at lembeh is awesome with active volcanoes right opposite our resort.... Thanks Sam for the sharp eyes looking for the critters and the resort stuff which make the stay so pleasent (especially the guys who cooked my maggie goreng almost everyday).

Overall the diving experience is a great one... had many photos and video but i guess it takes a lot of effort to upload them as there are too many... my camera housing also starting to have minor leaks which i might be out of photography for long, if not i gotta risk even more serious leaks if it gets worse. Bunaken and Lembeh stary skies i will never forget as it is so beautiful as it fills the skies totally at night... me myself i keep thinking about a person which i find it quite puzzling... never had such experience for a long time that i keep thinking about a specific person... even at 36.5m at a wreck in the midst of the dive together with other times like at night looking at the stary skies, before sleep, waiting for dives and in the midst of other dives.... hmmm maybe is just a one sided affair... which i dunno how it goes.... i am now half hoping and half scared cos i still hold on to hopes but still too many rejections and dissapointments in the past keep huanting me during such random thoughts about that someone.... sighz.. is quite tormenting acutally....

Putting those aside... now i kind of get used to waking up at 7am and sleep at 10am after 8 days of Bunaken and Lembeh as the sun rises like 4+am and sets at 5+pm.... now at 8am after 1 hour of procrastination i decided to blog about this.... now reality starts to come in after 8 days of holidays.... i am kind of lost a bit actually.... sports camp and job hunting is now the main priority and also catching up with ppl who really appreciates me... you know who you are... jio me out ok? =)

Oh oh one annoucement i wanna make... i finally graduated!!!! wheeee!!!! wanna thank everyone who made this possible especially my Uni friends and my parents =) too many to list... you know who you are! ppl from Yellow House peeps, Arts Club 26th and 27th peeps , Econs module frens, Rag frens, Sports Camp 08 09 peeps, Dive club, Sports Club peeps and more!

Challenges after challenges

2009-07-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

Everysince i last updated my blog... i have been really busy preparing for sports camp... i have been a firefighter everyday fighting "fire" of freshman drop out due to injuries, H1n1 close contact, Kena Quarantine, not feeling well and more... i have to keep getting replacment even until day zero.... when the camp started... i have to do double job due to a irresponsible treasurer which i have handle all the money issues myself from the mess she created... i feel deprived as i got many stuff to think abt and to do until i dun have time to enjoy myself and interact with the camp... worse day 2 stuck in school.... and worse of all h1n1 visited sports camp.... which the camp stopped abruptly leaving many ppl lost and busy....

after going through so much... i still think organising sports camp is worth it... though i know i have limited capablity and weakness... like unable to multiask and being easily short circuited... i do apologies to anyone whom i offend when i am stressed... but i really felt organising sports camp is very meaningful and my o comm is awesome (Except certain irresponsible ppl). i am glad i have Hua Cheng and Runi with me too which they are very patient with me even with my shortcoming... yupz i heart sports camp! no regreting it and willing to do even though i graduated...

After the camp was given an order to stop. everyone was indeed dissapointed... a lot of why and what happened? but well decision has to be made to break camp for the safety of the rest... but i felt this might be a blessing in disguise... i can see the ppl are more bonded and i see the gd side of humanity... ppl concern with one another and catching up online... i think Sports Camp part 2 will be a blast when everyone is back healthy and h1n1 free! =)

Trapping alone at home is kind of bored and leads me wondering too many things... which is no gd... some would have know my mood wasn't too good... yeapz.. i am fine... i guess i am not a very fortunate person to live a life of blessings... gotta suck it up.... from being very busy to suddenly trap at home doing nothing except the post admin and h1n1 admin... i feel very lost indeed and easily irritable...

But on the brighter side... tml is my big day... Commencement 2009! i finally graduated from NUS... wow... its a miracle to be in NUS... and finnaly i made it... i am not a very smart person which i guess is the work of God for me to achieve this... my academic robe and mortar board is rdy for tml's occassion... those who are graduating with me... take photo with me! =)

Can I Do It?

2009-06-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

For the next few days till Mid July.... i seriously ask myself a question.... Can i do it? Can i make it? idk......

Happy Bday to Me

2009-06-21T01:17:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the late update... been very busy lately settling sports camp admin and money issues... 1 week ago was my bday was pretty glad my o comm celebrate for me... veeting me and splashing cake on me... which i feel quite appreciated... but before all these .... i wasn't expecting dat much too cos i really had a bad past... but was glad for them taking the effort to celebrate... appreciate it lots.... though i feel kind of sad my old pals from NUS didn't celebrate for me... for like 2 yrs... but i guess i gotta go on with it.... i was very disappointed with church ppl as i concluded dat they celebrate my bday base on membership not friendship... pardon me i say this but is very true for me now... which i gotta confess... when u are in the cell group they just celebrate and do it so dat they fulfil their duties as a Christians... but when u are not... somehow they disappear from u during ur bday and some just send msgs... which is like this yr... where are no where to be found... i do know some ppl are sincere to send such msgs... but overall i am really disappointed with church now more and more... i know its not God's fault... maybe i am just unfortunate to meet such ppl.... after a week on the bus after Hua Cheng celebration at City hall marina square... i suddenly feel a dip in my emotions and feeling down.... is like i wonder will i be able to find a friend who can really standby me until i grow old... someone who genuinely loves me for who am i.... so that i can really be comfortable... i tried to find it in church cos God is love and i dun find emotional love at home... but well i guess i have lost it all.... now friends who are unchurch are more concern about me than churched ppl... even if they are they rather be passive and keep quiet about it.... when i am at my deepest lowest point of life... where are they? when i am ostracised by ppl by untrue rumour... where are they? after so much disappointments... i am currently allergic to cell groups.... so ppl who just wanna recruit me in their CGs and make thier CG look bigger and so dat they can meet thier target and make thier CGLs happy... shooo go away i do not need you... those who thought sitting around and waiting for me to join ur CGs. also shoo go off and i will bite....

Multi Tasking

2009-06-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Yeah i admit i suck at multi tasking.... doing booth duty for 8 hours being handicapped by not being able to multi task is very tiring and sometimes easily irritable....especially you are handling money.... but gotta suck it up, tahan and do it... but very pleased so far the money tallies and forms are ok.... so anyone whom i show a darn tensed and fierce face... or i am very hostile talking to you... or i get impatient... pls pardon me....

One Hour of Anxiety

2009-06-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

Today has been rather an unlucky day... i almost lost my Concession Pass when i took a bus to meet Runi to shop for house identity logistics for the various house for Sports Camp.... but in the end i got it back... i was very fortunate... i call the interchange in time before the bus left the interchange... it was on 198 that i lost it and thank to Hua Cheng's Call.. yupz.. the card drop out while i pull my handphone out... sighz... but well its over... was rather traumatised after the incident... lucky i was cool enough to stop think and act and manage to get it back...

Bad Past

2009-06-08T03:41:00.002+08:00

Many ppl had been asking me... wassup with doomsday... yeapz i had an emotion wreckage last yr during this period.... i always hate my bday cos is usually the day that dissapoint me... maybe i am expecting too much... or maybe i have a life like this... not bond to be happy on my bday.... my family dun celebrate birthdays... not even a wish.... therefore during my birthday i always envy others... and feel lonely.... sometimes i ask God... am i bond to live a life like this? if not why it seems to be like this forever.... i have tried and tried.. but still.... sometimes i just wanna shot myself and end my life.... but i am too scared to die.... dejavu to some of you all right? yupz.. i am human too.... maybe this yr i should expect totally nothing... that my bday dun even exist... maybe i might feel better this way...

New Wish List

2009-06-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

I have decided to update my wish list!!! hahaha just finished NUS Sports Camp Pre Camp... wow tiring... had a gd 15hrs sleep to recuperate... up next is freshie registration! work work....

Graduated!

2009-05-29T15:51:00.004+08:00

For the past week i was graduated in both courses! one is my PADI Wreck diver course which i can dive around and into wrecks with a penetration line and more guidelines! the trip was a marvellous one as i enjoyed myself through out the trip! thanks Andy and Karla for being such good host and instructors! best dive site for the trip is Snake rock... fantastic! Nurse Sharks, Huge marble ray, Great Vis! At Kuantan wreck the vis is also terrific! with minimum current... awesome!

Second course i graduated is my Uni education! yeah! as the picture below... its self explanatory!

Really wanna thank God for such results. Finally i met my target of Cap 3.5 and graduated with Merit... now the challenge is to find a job now... tough....

Anyway on a different light.... i went to Chek Jawa yesterday for an inter tidal walk trip... the place is a beauty... enjoyed myself walking around the place and see interesting critters.... and after that i went to my boss dive shop to help with the shifting... so excited about how the new shop look like!

Decision Made...

2009-05-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

I shall take down the friends list...

Oh welcome back home!! jiamin!

Busy Busy Busy

2009-05-17T20:17:00.004+08:00

These few days had been very busy, like going for my SAA (Singapore Athletics Association) Track Judging Course, Sports Camp, Birthday and keep fit (been swimming).... Next week gonna be a killer also as i got my field judging course, wreck diving lesson, sports camp, going to Kuantan Wreck this coming weekend... finally i get to breath compressed air eversince Sipadan in Jan....

I was quite loved and appreciated when i saw this!

Thanks ppl and thanks Miq hahaha!!! Never knew ppl are concerned about my future happiness...

On another note... i have been thinking to remove the friends list as a few of them are invalid links and i am lazy to update it....

Pang Seh

2009-05-12T02:08:00.003+08:00

Kynneth doesn't like to be pang sehed.... once or twice or due to unforseen circumstances he is ok and able to take it gracefully.... but not all the time and everyone is doing it... Kynneth gonna get pissed

Wishes for May

2009-05-11T02:46:00.003+08:00

Month of May has just passed almost 25%... just hope that the remaining 75% i can use the remaining month to....

1) Go Diving and get a wreck specialty Licence
2) Go Chek Jawa find interesting creatures during lowest tide
3) Make Sports Camp a success
4) Have meals with my dear frens
5) Keep fit
6) Hope for gd results on 29th May
7) Complete my SAA Track Judging Course
8) Secure a Job

Promises Alienation

2009-05-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Every weekend u sit in an environment for many years hoping your life can be changed, following advice of people... but as yrs goes by after hearing so many promises... somehow what u wish for dun seem to come to past.... the word love has been repeated so many times yet u dun feel it... u try to change and hope things gets better in fact it went the opposite... is this part of the plan? seeing people life get better but u seem to sit at the side bench and watch others... never a time is your turn.... the message is love but you dun feel it... instead this is the place where u get hurt the most instead of being love.... ppl keep saying they understand... they dun mind listening... but well is just words... words are cheap.... they simply just stand on the other side and u are struggling to reach them... but they never step out to come nearer to u and they are just too far... u feel very deprived from something which the place should had offered the most... this kind of wound is very deep and hurting.... but i know is not His fault.... you try to love others... but u come to a point u ran out of it.... guess i am in a place where Love is all around but i am not entitled somehow.... i am very tired... really tired.... all i can do is hope and it seems to remain as a fantasy forever... indeed Alienation seems to be a gd word to u.... u are in the place to have it but u just can't have it.... which such idea is birth off by a famous Sociologist, Karl Marx, guess its gonna be a miracle to come out of this...

Admiration

2009-05-03T18:18:00.002+08:00

I do Admire people who are not well liked by the masses, looked down by people and having much criticism, while they are doing what they desire and dream of which is not wrong... such people really deserve respect and honour as they overcome odds and become successful despite of being unpopular...

A little side track... yeah i guess for me i also do need to do something new and be myself... starting a new phase of life very soon graduating from NUS... putting the past behind... a wise advise from someone... you know who u are =)

Crossed The Finish Line

2009-05-01T01:52:00.002+08:00

Finally i crossed the finish line in NUS... finally ended all my exams and considered a free man.... before the exams was butterflies in my stomach... but after exams i feel nothing... the last paper was indeed the toughest which no matter how much u flip... u dun really find the answer... i really hope i can do well for the last sem and graduate in time... suddenly now feeling kind of empty... is like suddenly nothing to do... the weird feeling.... sports camp stuff are coming the way and really hope my boss will schedule me some DM duties to pass my time in a meaningful manner... last yr my emotions totally went into extreme low at this period... i really hope this yr history won't repeat again.... Anyway for those whose exams ain't over... all da best... i also had my days ending late so u are not alone and u can end early like me in future possible =)

Less Than 24 Hours

2009-04-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

In less than 24hours i gonna cross the finishing line for my NUS academia life.... 7pm will be the hour of liberation... i dunno how to describe my feelings but somehow i do have fixed feelings... tml paper will be transport econs open book style... i dunno how uncle chin gonna destroy us... but well... hope i can do it.... Starbucks Holland V has been a nice place to study with cosy lighting and gd music for studying... maybe will continue to hang out there more soon... people there are frenly too... somehow there is a certain culture there :P

1 Down 2 More to Go

2009-04-26T14:32:00.004+08:00

Developmental Econs almost become my horror when i am stunned by the question... but manage to finish the 3 question... reason is that my answers are floating all over my mind until i could not even collect it and formulate into an essay... i have to frantically flip my text and notes to do my essay... hope i can score a B+ for my module as i already got A- and A+ as 40% already... next up will be Tourism Dev paper.... 9 freaking am... i dunno am i still awake to do the paper.... is the most uncertain paper i gonna have as i have no idea how he gonna ask me and its closed book... if wad happens in dev econs happens again... i am GGfied.... there i shall make my trip to starbucks in 15mins time to study.... and to my horror again... what i have been drinking for the past week is hellish demonic fattening... no wonder i feel fats jiggling around me.... look at this!

Think i gonna start taking tall coffe light... which makes it less than 200 calories than the 600 calories with 23g of fat.... this is like revelation to me!

Exams!

2009-04-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

Finally finished my last day of school on sat.... exams will be done by next Wednesday 7pm... hope i can survive this final showdown.... its been a while i have last blogged and it become stagnant... do wanna apologise that... May will start to blog again... cya ya all soon!

Global Warming

2009-03-31T12:52:00.002+08:00

Recent earth hour where the whole world shows its support for anti global warming by swtiching thier lights and air con off for a period of an hour to show thier support a cooler earth caused by Global warming. Many people if you ask them, what causes global warming, many would say deforestation, release of excessive greenhouse gas like carbon dioxide and methane contributed by combustion and biogas creation like methane from Cows... well.... the whole world and leaders have been putting an effort to reduce such problems which causes global warming, which in turn causing the earth to function in a weird way like weather and climate which ecology can be affected... Such focus is only 30% of the earth as earth land mass is 30% land and 70% ocean...

Many people will not know actually the Ocean is the biggest earth support system which also do its part by regulating the climate on earth? and also converting carbon dioxide to oxygen in terms of carbon cycle? such cycle the main contirbutor is the planktons found in oceans around the world... the current state of the earth which is in the state of global warming can be caused by excessive reduction of planktons in the ocea... ahhhhh why?

Many people on the earth especially Chinese love to eat or drink shark fin soup... i do admit in the past i do that too but now no longer.... Shark fin soup has been sought after as food of luxury that by eating it shows dat u are quite well off.. and shark fin soup is a delicacy for the emperor which is a royalty food.. therefore, due to the boom in population of chinese and and sharkfin soup made common to people... plus non chinese finding the soup is delicious (is the soup not the fin cos the fin has no taste at all! just add texture like having pearl in ur bubble tea). Due to such high and increasing demand now... ppl have been shark finning non stop as it brings a lot of money to them if the shark fin... therefore in places where sharks are present and the ppl in the area are poor.. due to money pressure... they shark fin to survive and in turn prosper... as a result... the world looses 90% of the shark population due to such killings and such killing is cruel... imagine someone thinks dat ur ear is delicious... they cut it off and throw u away... pretty inhuman right? yeapz this is what is happening to the sharks due to shark finning.... as such huge reduction... the ecology system is unbalanced... which will reduce the plakton count due to the reduction of such ocean predator....

Sharks are not as ferocious as we thought... the no. of ppl killed by lions or elephants are even higher than sharks according to statistics.... even shark attack fatality rate is less than a person being crushed by a vending machine... therefore i was wondering why saving the shark is not popular.... and earth hour is being well recevied by the public... think about it... earth hour control the earth surface only 30% ... saving the sharks control the earth surface 70%... as a result... think they should introduce a world wide campaign to educate ppl not to eat shark fins and lets try 1 yr no eating shark fin... all wedding dinner ban shark fin.... and sevrely punish shark finners.... After watching Sharkwaters for the 2nd time at my new house... and the on going earth hour... puts me in deep thoughts....

Come on save the sharks... you can do this to stop global warming which covers 70% of the earth life support system... and the earth has more oxygen and less greenhouse gas.... do your part... stop consuming shark fin and put pressure on shark finning...

MIA

2009-03-29T22:06:00.003+08:00

Guess i have not been blogging for almost a month... indeed... for the past month many things had happened... really putting a strain physically and emotionally on me... life is indeed tough... as usual... School work.. Sports Camp... Moving House... and people issues.... currently running my last lap for school... now i only have like last 4 weeks in NUS.... my NUS "ORD" date will be 29 April 7pm... so pls meet up soon ok? last 1 month already... i really hope i can graduate with at least 3.2 and secure a job in Mindef as HR Policy Executive.... or DSTA Business Development Executive.... Currently i just finished moving house... there now i am staying in West Coast... no longer Jurong West... still trying to get used to the new living envrionment and arrangments... moving indeed is a chore... but after moving new house... i really hope i can start a new life just like pressing the reset button.... before i do a special mention on peeps.... my current plan until last day of NUS will be doing transport project and sports camp info paper... tourism presentation.... GEK2507 last test then mug and final exams... and i am done... currently looking for plans for grad trip and operating sports camp right after exams...

These are the people i would like to mention after i moved my house whom live near me....

Vanessa Poh:
Hey naybor really wanna thanks you for ur frenship while being ur naybour just living opposite your block... thanks for the gift from new zealand and ur sandwhich freshly delivered from ur home in rollerblades... really appreciate it and i enjoy ur company online... i remember i know you when both of us waiting for cab to Expo... lol... what a weird way to know ya... but nevertheless... is my pleasure knowing you! meet up soon after my school ok? and i really hope u can come NUS... must come sports camp ah!

Vivien Cheng:
Hey my next door naybor... this naybor i know her is the most bizarre way too... she is my secret pal during a camp... and lo and behold... she stay just a few doorstep away from me on the same floor... we are shocked... really wanna thanks you for the sweet things u done like putting sweet stuff outside my door near my flower pots... i really appreciate it.. now u are in denmark doing you SEP... can't really meet up with u before i move... but i hope we can meet up after u come back ok? thanks naybor...

Jasmine Seah:
Hey naybor thanks for being such a sweetie when i was down.. i do not know you well... but when i am really down.... you came in to comfort me... i can never forget that... after that... u are indeed a very nice person who is there for ur fren.... will always be in my mind ok? yeapz.... thought we didn't have time to meet up for dinner... i really wanna take this time to thank you for the frenship and chat we had... thanks girl....

Meng Qi:
Hey naybor i know you during sports camp and never did i realise u stay so near me... hahaha so nice to u chat with me online and i really appreciate it... thought among all the naybor i know u for the shortest time... but i felt like i known u for quite a while.... hope u like the cheesecake i made for ya.... now i am ur naybor in terms of u staying hall... LOL! catch up soon! u are a very nice girl! =)

Clarice:
Hey girl... long time no see... u are not forgotten.... hope u are doing fine... enjoyed the mahjong session at ur hse... soon i invite u to mine ok? hahahaha know u during arts camp and yeah.... i am leaving sch soon... catch up soon!

Chun Fong:
Hey naybor... thanks for the dinner company i had with u... and also the listening ear.... really appreciate ya... i dunno how to say everything in words... but indeed u made a difference in my life ok? like the company i had with u... yeah... dun worry u will not be forgotten ok? =)

Melissa:
Long time no see u... but still remember u stay opposite my block... glad to know u... hope to hear from u soon

Lynn Choo:
Hey thanks for the frenship... thanks for listening to me... =)

Sharon Koh:
hey ah zhu.... thanks for the frenship i had with u ok? thanks for showing concern when i am down and give me sweet stuff... will never forget... thanks for hearing me and organising the outings.... thanks for the chat i had with u on the train and while walking u back.... catch up soon ok? seoul garden!!!!

Wen Hao:
Know this dude from sports camp... funny and humorous... thanks for the company home since we stay near each other... thanks dude... enjoyed the talk i had with yah.....

Gareth:
Hey never talk much to you... but still remember the time we talked while driving home from woodlands when u send teck home... yeah thanks for being a fren...

Special non naybour mention: Adeline Yeong

Hey girl thanks for the listening ear and also feedback you gave me... really appreciate it and also the times u ask me to join ya for activities... i really treasure it... hope after i grad we can continue to keep in contact and meet up for gathering and doing fun things... one thing i am impressed that when u trying to say soemthing to me... u do it in a tactful way which i will pause and think about it.... which some area i could have overlooked... really enjoy the frenship i have with u which i know u won't turn ur back away from me.... do take care ok? =)

Some Economic Analysis

2009-03-08T13:50:00.003+08:00

"SINGAPORE: The economic crisis might not mean lower business for everyone.
For the past two months, a stall at Toa Payoh had seen its business increase by more than 50 per cent.It is one of the many stalls enjoying good business at Toa Payoh Lorong 7.The stall sold a plate of rice with meat, fish and vegetables for S$2.20. But its stall owner said this price was the lowest it could go. Many of its customers were from the low income group. And thanks to the cooked food stall, the drinks stall nearby is also enjoying better business."

Source: Channel News Asia (Sunday, 08 March 2009)

As we can see there is a phenomena of substitution happening where people turn towards cheaper food as their income is reduced or at risk, so we can see the concept of decomposition happening in this case. Price elasticity or even income elasticity might be elastic as consumer switch to cheaper food which contribute such high increase in revenue. There might be a Bertrand Competition happening as stalls are fighting with each other using price by undercutting each other, instead of quantities, but the stall selling $2.20 might be smart or rational enough to sell it at a small margin above its costs. We also can see how such reduction of price in cooked food can bring positive externalities to the drink stall. Therefore, from the article, during a recession, we can still have oppurtunities to make a profit if we have the brains and confidence to do business, as low demand doesn't mean no demand. =)

P.S: Too much economics going on in sch right now... now starting to write another 3000-4000 words essay due next week... now also trying to be emotional stronger too and mentally stronger... less than 2 more months in school... i am starting to dread it... but thinking of school work and exams i want to end it fast... its a paradox.... i love the ppl who cherish me in sch but time continue to pass... i still have to part them in terms of seeing each other in school... hope i graduate we can continue to meet outside and hang out =) which is one of my wish too...

M.I.A

2009-02-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

Sorry everyone was MIA for quite a period of time... was going thru some tough times... will come back to blogging after a period of time which i got no idea.... been busy recently and lots of things happened... made some drastic decision.... deep in my heart i really hope things will get better.... meanwhile busy with sports camp... school.. and personal matter... diving will begin soon... yupz... do look out for this space for updates... maybe after 6 march as test and essay kicks in much... anyway will be moving house in a month time... therefore... will get real busy.... currently i have 2 more months in NUS.... time really flies...

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

2009-02-12T17:24:00.001+08:00

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Thy I am yours.
I am yours.

Allergic

2009-02-12T01:30:00.002+08:00

1 more day to go... short of 2000+ words... where am i going to find it... :(

Anyway I am allergic to vday... don't ask me what am i going to do that day or how am i that day yeah.... by not asking u are already accumulating a gd karma.... yupz...

Breath Breath Breath.....

2009-02-04T22:36:00.003+08:00

BREATH~~~~ is wad i need to do now... many things at hand... feel kind of worn out now.... trying to update this blog regularly... but realise i can't as i was very busy with sch and sports camp.... everything is like coming at a same time and recently my MSN contacts in my Contacts list was deleted... it was rather trumatising.... but in the end thank God ... with the help of MSN efficient crew which my request was processed within a day... i got back all my contacts thru a method... Thanks!... well... now having a 4k word essay in hand plus councillor recruitment... i really need to pull myself together once again and go thru it... i hope through my business i do not neglect anyone and offend anyone as i can get quite irritable at time.... will update more soon if i can... i guess will be after my 4k word essay...

25 Things About Me

2009-01-25T15:39:00.002+08:00

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you! I.......

1) don't eat veges, seafood, mutton, fruits (especially durians) and hates alcohol cos is so bitterz... Yucks

2) hates insects especially the one that flies including cockroaches that flies.

3) was never attached before aka. evergreen (some ppl dun believe i never had a gf before) and wish to marry before the age of 30

4) loves ice cream, chocolates, waffles, pancakes... i got sweet tooth !(oh i dun like to eat sweet surprisingly)

5) was a Sea Cadet in NCC and eventually become a Cadet Officer which i wore the Navy No. 1 holding a sword during NCC day as Guard of Honour and thats my greatest moment in life.

6) first crush was in primary 5 (yet once again) and her name is Hui Ju. A sweet tanned girl with a beautiful smile (right now i still remember her looks and her smile!).

7) snatched the whole plate of biscuits during Nursery days and labeled as a selfish boy LOL!

8) made a teacher cry before.

9) wants to be a president when he was a small boy.

10) stole a toy plane before when he was 2 years old.

11) used a pair of scissors and cut his face before during the eve of Chinese New Year.

12) poo in the sea before... hur hur =X

13) was once 81kg with a whooping 34inches waist.

14) drank 15 cups of milo from the milo truck without stopping.

15) underwent 4 surgeries that require full or general anesthesia.

16) hates sleeping in aircon rooms.

17) won his first medal (Silver) during secondary 2 for Kayaking Singles during his NCC days

18) become a divemaster when he never thought of being one before in the past...

19) loves Jack russell terriers and also loves to travel and dive his whole life

20) learn to ride a bicycle without falling

21) dialled 995 before in a real emergency

22) never sprain his ankle before

23) was hit by the bus side mirror while waiting for a bus at the bus stop and almost got rammed by a speeding van crossing the road, which the van misses me an inch and the lights are red...

24) has stage frights since the incident during primary 2

25) love language is physical touch (i.e hugs and holding hand) and quality time... oh my they are so girl girl one... i suspect i had too much Soya beans that my testosterone are affected.

Waiting

2009-01-25T03:03:00.002+08:00

After so many years... i am still waiting for the sun to shine one day.... but the sun seem not able to shine one day...

Pressed Down

2009-01-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

1 Week of School has passed.... Lessons, Sports Camp O comm recruitment and thoughts of Chinese New Year Shopping which i have not done any eats up my time and energy.... a lot of things are still hanging in the air like my module tutorial balloting... Moving house issues... and now i starting to plan my lunch meetings.... which i doubt i can find anyone... cos this sem timing is really very off... and i dread Wednesdays cos i gonna have 4hr break doing nothing... and on top of all these, problems which yet to resolve also adds in the pressure.... how i wish i can find a place to hide....

Back To School

2009-01-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

Finally backed to school... kind of feeling a little worn out and down... cos i have the feeling of coming back to reality and why the hell i am back in school kind of feeling... suddenly pace of life picks up like a might rush of wind and not long ago life was easy and relaxing during the Sipadan Trip.... had a wonderful Trip with Euming and the rest of the company... wanna thank boon kiat for doing all the admin and aliasing work... well done... pictures will be out soon... give me a few days as i am caught in a process of settling down as i just came back Singapore.... guess i going to have a rough journey ahead as i have very intensive modules to tackle... modules i doing are

EC3382 - Transport Economics I
EC3371 - Developmental Economics I
GE3226 - Tourism Development
GEk2507 - Computational Methods For Basic Finance

Also i gotta settle moving of house in March plus sports camp planning... so is like i got so many things to juggle..... pfft.... and today i learn something new and is very true for me.... ppl value lost more than gain....

New Year, New Life

2009-01-05T00:15:00.006+08:00

Just Some Updates... the past few weeks i thank God dat is it rather fulfilling and busy... First was the JB Trip which we watch Yes Man for like 6RM at City Square... even cheaper than buying DVD.... we also had some nice food and massage while shopping around... had a great company like Willis, Miq, Ashton and Pamela...

Next was New yr Eve visit to Frolicks to visit my 2 dear frens Merissa and Georgina... wah... i had a nice cup of yogurt thanks to them! hahah you 2 rock man!

After Frolicks i went for a CG gathering at Serangoon, which is Clara house.. nice food and house.... after that i went back to Holland V to meet Ade and Gang for new yr eve count down... had a great time and company also... we had our own countdown and champange toast.... had a great new eye eve...

After New year eve... Met Heng Yee for Popeyes! long time no see her... wah she drives a car of her own now... envious sia... how i wish i got my own car too! and the next day went Sentosa with Miq Bright and Emiko to Sentosa!!! had some gd sharing and chat.... you guys rock!

On Sat .... Finally Met up with SC 08 O comm after so long.... had a BBQ nite and manage to catch up with one another... wann thank mich heng and Runi for organising the BBQ... next time can come my new hse for BBQ!

Talking about new House... i went to my new house before i went East coast for the BBQ.... was a nice house with a nice balcony... looking forward to move in although commuting might be more hassling than my current house.... and my new hse has an oven... cool! can bake cookies soon!... so it will be another 3 months in JW for me... so my dear JW naybors! lets meet up soon!!!

Anyway going to dive in Sipadan tml!!! gonna take some photos and chill at the resort... hope interesting marine life visits the dive site and a great company ahead!! will be updating what i wish for this coming yr! cya!

แฟนฉัน (My Girl in Thai)

2008-12-27T02:17:00.003+08:00

Fan Chan (Thai: แฟนฉัน, English: My Girl) is a 2003 Thai romantic comedy film offering a nostalgic look back at the childhood friendship of a boy and girl growing up in a small town in Thailand in the 1980s. It was the debut film by six young screenwriter-directors, Vitcha Gojiew, Songyos Sugmakanan, Nithiwat Tharathornn, Witthaya Thongyooyong, Anusorn Trisirikasem and Komgrit Triwimol. With a soundtrack that featured Thai pop music of the era, Fan Chan was the top domestic film at the Thailand box office in 2003, earning 140 million baht.
(Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fan_Chan )

Just watched the above movie from channel 8 just now... my second time watching the show... watching the show really brings the nostalgic days of my childhood... i like this movie cos the male lead somehow resembles my life.... at the end of the day he could only remmeber how the girls looks like when she is like 11yrs old... same as me as i only remember my first crush in p5 and her looks when she was 11yrs old... is a pretty sad ending.... becos the girl is moving out of town and he missed seeing her the last time and getting contacts... which i lost contact from the girl i like too... and in the end he went her wedding and she is marrying another guy.... sad...
The show also let me remember how i try to get accepted by frens around me... trying my very best... just like the male lead too... yeah.... i love the movie... i think Thai movie are very nice.... and i quite love thai culture... =)

Hit & Run

2008-12-26T02:56:00.005+08:00

Sometimes the hurt of being "betrayed" by someone u used to call him or she a friend can get so deep and bitter that it handicaps you... at first they give u a feeling that u can trust them... but things can go so suddenly, is like a hit and run accident... before u can see it u are already knocked out by the betrayal.... and once upon a time when u call him or she a friend... whom u share your stuff with.... turns thier back on u with a speed of a lighting... leaving u stranded on the road... not telling u the reason... without any warning... yeah not once not twice but many times i got hit.... i wonder how much more i can take it.... sometimes it really doesn't pays to be nice... people still treat u like dirt... this is really ugly....

Pre Christmas Parties

2008-12-24T16:06:00.003+08:00

Putting a lot of things behind... on Friday i went for a Christmas gathering at Georgina place... really enjoyed myself with them... it has been 2 yrs since we had Christmas Dinner with a gift exchange... i really like to thank God to have them as my friends cos they have been with me for almost 3 yrs soon.... during my dark times when they get to know it they shown me concern and encoruagement... thank you peeps =) on that night we had so much food that we almost unable to walk... really overwelming... and we had so much left overs... really wanna thank Geo for her place and the setup of the event =)

Group photo with the very cute Christmas Log Cake that taste yummy!

My Mortal Geo!!! glad dat she is very happy with the facemask i got her

My Angel Geri!! she seems to know what to get for me... shoe bag is one of the item i needed cos my current one is so smelly and the zip is spoilt dat i gotta use safety pin in order to be able to open and close the bag...

Next on Monday i also had a great time with Raggers and many others at Hzuy's place... wanna thank Hzuy for the party and his place... we really enjoyed ourselves... gd food... great company and generous host... the food is like oh my gosh... yummy and tastey.... we had a lot of fun too... all the catching up... gift exchange and singing of carol(thats really hilarous).... Huzy and Ade u both rock man... hahaha anyway had some hiccups after the party... my rental care broke down... so sad... can't complete my task sending my frens home but somehow is alright cos we already reached the east side... Really Thank God we made to cross the huge Junction and managed to park the car safely by the Kerb... first time i encounter car break down.... something new i learn that day....

As you can see everyone had lots of fun and joy at Hzuy's place.... really love u guys... hope to see u all in school again!

Lastly, the results are out...

Kind of dissapointed with Financial Economics which i put my hope in... i know i make a lot of careless mistake in the exam... aiming for a B+ in the end got a B-... so kind of quite bothered... but overall everything is in check and the Food module really surprises me where i dun even bother to study much about it... and i got a A-... and my cap increased by 0.01 ... reall hope next sem i can do better and hit beyond 3.5...

Anyway Merry Christmas to everyone!!! hope everyone have a blessed Christmas and a joyful one... =)

Gastrono-athlon

2008-12-18T01:36:00.003+08:00

Once again sorry for the late update... was pretty lazy after exams... is like a few weeks of madness... suddenly i feel so nua and lazy... tsk.... especially when u stuck at home u tend to be very lazy... anyway after much struggle i decided to go for an event organised by my sch church group.... initially thought it will be a bit strange cos never in contact with them for quite a while... wanna thank Howard for giving me to honour to help as the last man.... Heres a group photo before we took off...

It was cold and rainy.... my crumpler got soak to the max and i am drenched... but overall it is quite fun =) though there is some hiccups... but everything is fine... the only thing not gd is the backside got poked by the saddle which kind of hurts lol... buts its fine :P

Next one the list to update is dat i just got the post of Deputy Project Director (admin) confirmed... which i will be doing sports camp 2009... so if u are from NUS and u are interested pls let me know... after the meetings will let ya know wad post is offered... =) guess this is going to be a challenge for me cos i never took such a position before... took it by faith... i hope i can do a good job and know some great ppl which i hope i can build frenship dat last long... guess gonna be very busy soon....

Lastly i really hope this year christmas i will enjoy it well... quite excited to meet the ppl who care for me this friday and monday.... without them... my christmas is so meaningless and bored.... really hope i can enjoy myself before seeing my actual results on 23rd Dec... next sem will be my last sem... i hope it will be a gd one and to be remembered.... =)

Sorry For The Late Update

2008-12-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late update.... ever since exam is done.. i was too lazy to update.... yeah... So Far i really wanna cross my fingers and hope i can get a semester cap of 3.5... hoping for the best.... I was having a love hate relationship regarding holidays... cos i no more school means no more company for lunch or breaks... so kind of stuck at home... but recently was rather ok... went for Pool side bbq at Emiko's place... enjoyed myself there hope ppl dun have to tahan my existence.... then played soccer with the rag people... and today went for makan with Jo my evil twin... so far so gd.... really hope i will not stay at home and rot my holidays... cos this is my last holiday before i step into the working world.... so really wanna spend my holiday well... so people... pls ask me, date me, jio me, or wadever me out pls!

Hang On There

2008-11-30T20:37:00.003+08:00

2 more days or 40 more hours to be exact to go i will cross the finishing line for this semester!!!! study!!!! STUDY!!!!!

Finshing Line: MPSH 1B
D Day Time: 3pm 2 December 08 (1pm Paper)
Module: EC3102 Macroeconomics Analysis II

Bad Start

2008-11-26T01:50:00.003+08:00

Yeah Health economics was a disaster... cannot finish plus dunno how to do... this is the first time in uni life i di kam my MCQs for up to 10 questions... bad bad bad.... died miserably in that paper... later will be financial... oh God dun give me another heart breaker man.... but fortunate for health everyone complain like nobody business.... so hope the power of bell can save me and give me a minimum of B- .... anyway i realise for the past yr my exam have some patterns in venue.... Yr 1 majority was MPSH 1 and 2... so i call it the MPSH 1, 2 season then MPSH 5 season and then AS1 season... and it moved on to the PGP season... and now the Sheares Hall season... looks like there is a pattern in my exam venue... next yr i wonder wad will it be... hmmmm....

Car & Dating Agency Analysis

2008-11-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

COE for 1600cc and below is currently $2 bucks.... and petrol prices are near $1.50 SGD per litre... gd time to buy a car man.... hahahaha provided u don't get retrenched :P

Currently many dating agnecies pop out... looks like u gotta sign up many membership to get a bigger circle of profiles potentially ur companion if the following assumptions applies:

1) Lets say a population of 1000 there are 100 dating competing agency.... all of them share the same amt of customer evenly and assume 1 person only chose 1 dating agency....

2) so 1 agency has 10 clients.... and assume gender ratio to be 0.5 so 5 male and 5 females....

3) If the customer only sign up for one agency and agency dun share thier database among each other... the customer only have 5 choices to pick from...

Therefore from the looks.... making dating agency privatise has its potential problems.... ppl gotta pay more to join many membership to increase thier chances if agency dun share thier database.... or still do not provide wide range of choices which the larger the amt of choices the higher chance u find someone u like.... if not such problems can only solved if the agency share thier database.... which from the consumer point of view... SDU is better.... hahahaha unless the government force the agency to share database... if not consumer need to pay for many membership to increase thier chances... :P

8 Dives

2008-11-18T11:55:00.006+08:00

8 Dives on a regular Dayang Weekend is super duper tiring... even when i finished the first 5 dives on sat with a Dawn dive... i knocked out halfway logging my dives.... that tiring.... and Sunday 3 dives are done... Such fatique was being carried over on Monday... which halfway thru the lecture i dozed off as i slept rather late the night before due to washing of equipment... The Weather was rather bad during the weekend as it rains almost all the time... and the waves are strong and choppy... current was strong too... and worst of all... the visibility underwater is poor... so only managed to take a few pictures....

Now back to reality.... time to study for the final exams... seems like i am too lazy to study right now... i really need motivation to study man.... modules are difficult and packed together during exams.... wonder how am i going to survive... but guess God will bring me thru which i believed.... Whatever emotion baggage i left behind during the dive trips seems like waiting to come back to me when i am back from diving.... seems like is a tough battle... when there is a breakthrough... its really a miracle.... i really want to stop a life of feeling that i lack something.....

Quiz

2008-11-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

Tml is my dreadful science quiz under the module food security and safety... i hope i can do well to cover for the exams... which i got no idea on how to do it... writing Bio essays? i never do bio in my life... sighz.. i need a miracle... after the quiz need to go for financial lecture which options and black scholes model is driving me nuts...

But after dat need to rush home pack my dive gears and Perry is going to pick me up and go to Dayang... i really hope the whaleshark is still there man.... hope i can make use of this diving trip to rejuvenate myself... put away all the sad things which clinging to me and have fresh energy to study next week intensively for my final exams... quite sad some of my frens having thier last exams as they will be graduating...

Lastly... was offered to take up the post for DPD sports camp... i dunno whether am i up to the challenge.... or i should just stick to my treasurer role... haiz...

Post Diarrhea Cravings

2008-11-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

After a week of diarrhea finally my appetitte is back... sorry ade u never see me for a week cos i having diarrhea went to the doc or home immediate after every lesson... yupz now starting to have these cravings

1) Prata
2) Ice Cream
3) Waffles
4) Rosti
5) Seoul Garden
6) Meatballs
7) Cheese Sausage
8) Long John Grill Chicken
9) Chocolate Milkshake
10) Mud pies
11) Cheesecakes
12) teppanyaki chicken

Diahorrea

2008-11-06T00:30:00.001+08:00

Yeah i was down with Diahorrea for 3 days... 3 days of misery... felt so weak and dying... yeah now i really cannot drink any alcohol especially Beer... cos after drinking those things... i have Diahorrea like nobody business.... =( really thank God is recovering now though the stomach is still quesy....

Deep In My Heart

2008-11-03T01:59:00.003+08:00

Today i think i had too much drinks... after going for drinking sessions to session with the crew....even went to a pub with girls putting thier arms around u when u are alone and even footsie you.... but i hold myself well and rejected them well... but after going back home with lots of drinking... i felt that my emotions are all out... i really felt like a loser at times.... angry with myself... feeling that oh my God when are u going to deliver me? i am suffering now... why ppl out there playing can enjoy themselves... yet me trying to be mr nice guy get trampled... unappreciated and sick in the heart of my dreams feared not to come to pass.... i dunno wad to do at times... i am just angry with myself... and i am pretty lost... does it pay to be gd... currently not really.... or maybe i am too hurt that some gesture i may overloook... sorry to those ppl who tried... i am really weak now...

The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You

2008-10-31T00:45:00.004+08:00

Sometimes how i wish someone did dat for me just as mentioned in the song....

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

Weight

2008-10-30T00:23:00.004+08:00

my heart weighs a tonne now.... fatique and many factors are pushing me... sometimes i really wanna hide in a place that i never come out... though i face life with a gd counternance now... but i dunno how long i can last.... being nice always kena "eaten" by ppl... wonder when will i see light.. i really dunno...

Reflections

2008-10-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Dive leading this weekend seems to be the most challenging one i encounter so far out of the 3 trips i went as a dive master... What Perry said was right... we have very demanding customers... all the customers seems to be very experience divers.. as a new dive master is quite a challenge... plus the weather conditions makes it even harder... plus this is a large group.... as a result there is some hiccups... but through it all... i learn many lesson as a dive master... which such experience which is kind of bad but helps me to be a better dive professional... after much thoughts... feedback from others and perry... i guess i gotta improve on my command and control, slowing down in dive leading... check more often my divers... deployment of divers.... and not to fight currents unnecessary... and to be more firm... sometimes is not gd to be a mr nice guy 100% of the time... sometimes gotta be real firm to makes things better... like what perry said... is better to piss off the customer on the boat than in the water... which things can turn even more nasty... writing this blog is kind of remind myself and let such lesson imprint in myself deeply so i will improve.... anyway project AWARE weekend was successful... we clear the crown of thorns, coral watching and clear some rubbish.... at the end of the day the customers are rather satisfied which make me feel kind of eased... managed to spot the rare decorator crab... crab spawning... great barracudas... Morays... cuttlefish.... Blue Spotted Sting rays... and more marine life... now i am thinking whether i should dive lead this weekend as exams are approaching and i am quite tired.... hmmm....

Sick

2008-10-24T01:16:00.003+08:00

Yes as a title suggests i have fell sick and tml i gotta lead a dive group... really pray dat God will heal me and make me well to lead with excellence tml... yeapz.... school has been quite busy and i am just plain lazy to do anything after the hell week happened a few weeks ago.... very soon gotta mug soon for the Finals.... currently planning what should i do during december holidays... trying to get a temp job to finance my hobby and maybe for grad trip next year....

yupz recently my emotions really went for a roller coaster ride... yupz.... guess my heart has really gone thru so much crap dat i am quite numb on certain stuff.... has always wonder when the day of victory will come... i always look to the sky and wonder.... will i walk out of this... when i say yes i have walked out from this and move on... things always seem so impossible... maybe dats the time God works... i am never angry with Him or blame Him for the things happening now and those not.... but i know one day the victory will come... but the wait is very painful.... is the process that is tormenting me.... but one thing for sure i have grown so much stronger from all these nonsense.... but the sting is still there.... i just want to be myself and not afraid that people will mistaken me... Gavin Degraw song... I don't wanna be... the song is also the song of One tree hill.... which always tells me all i have to do is to be me and have a peace of mind... indeed around me there is a lot of liars.... a lot of imposters... a lot of indentity Crisis.... everywhere i turn... thought i know the way i say is rather ambigious... but those who knows me well will know... yeah quite personal stuff....

Anyway today went for Yvonne's 21st Bday... thanks girl girl for being a gd fren who always concern about me and somehow protect me as a fren by telling me warnings... really apprieciate it.... wish u had a gd day and a wonderful time with QY soon.. :P anyway below the pics is taken during the bday... =)

Update Soon

2008-10-22T03:19:00.002+08:00

Will blog after i finish my assignment for financial economics... which is due on thursday!!! cya!

Extinction of Milo

2008-10-16T13:39:00.001+08:00

Pretty Sad when Milo has been extinct in NUS especially FASS when all the milo vending machines are gone.... very sad... no more my favourite drink to mug and study .... :(